laugh - ing

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2006-02-26T10:03:00.000-08:00

listening to : All Saints - Pure Shores

Sports Heats on Friday was stupid. ahhaha. there was a period when i was so Distraught and Self-Demeaning. hahaha. its for a reason okays. sigh. i came in freaking last for the Sec3 400m race. LOLx. i so suck. ahhaha. but then. i didnt train. i wasnt totally prepared for the race. i didnt like know until 1 day before? heex. NOT MY FAULT OKAYS :D

anyhows. hahaha. i told Dearie about it. he was totally frantic about me crying. hahaha. so cute(: but i didnt expect him to be so concerned(: he sent like 10 messages in 1 sitting? lovelovelove :D

training. we got so much to do. we got so much to say! find one day, we are going to set some ground rules :D and hopefully, they work(: and we are shifting into competition mood already. rightrightright! XD and mei, you are not allowed to comment that we are going slow(: or else. you wont see the light of another day. Mwaha. if i cant win in the Heats, we are going to rock in the Nationals(: ZETTAI!

ohoh. and something happened during training yesterday? on Saturday. yeps. we were training as usual and me and mei were coming back from the 1000m mark. we were supposed to be doing hard effort. ahhaha. then whilst doing it, we approached a whole team of AC boats? they were red. ahha. and we were approaching 500m. one of the reddie boats saw our juniors in the Stark Blue Boats and our Infamous Yellow Shirts and started commenting. he was like, Crescent! Block the friggin 500m! !*(&^&*((&^&#@! forgot what he said, but it wasnt nice. since they were spanning out so widely, we managed to row in between them. INFLITRATE THE ENEMY. LOL. so then, we had reddies on our left as well as on our right. then whilst he was still talking about our school, his friend was laughing. his friend was on our right and he was on our left. his friend was like, Hey, There's A Crescent Boat Beside Us. (in chinese) my expression must have been comical. it felt something like this : =.O

wahlao. ahha. talk about us liddat right. stupid. they are juniors what. how to expect them to know? dangg. i wanted to say : EXCUSE THEM, THEY ARE OUR JUNIORS AND ARE STILL GETTING ACUSTOMED TO MACRITCHIE. WE ARE EXTREMELY SORRY THAT THEY ARE BLOCKING YOUR WAY. AND COMMENTING BADLY ABOUT ANOTHER SCHOOL ISNT EXACTLY GENTLEMANLY ON YOUR PART. geez. but then, i decided against it. sigh. so we reached 500m. the reddie on our left shouted: OI, CRESCENT! MOVE ASIDE. i was like. move aside. move aside where? not making sense is it. so funny. then well, me and mei are racing 1000m and they were racing 500m. so i was freaking unsettled. and i didnt want them to overtake us and i didnt want them to think they can push us around like that. AIYAR. i was not exactly annoyed but somehow amused, so, according to wanmei, i was paddling like Siao. ahhaha. she compared it to Helicopter. LOL. i wasnt even aware that i was paddling that fast. until at the last point, she was like, i cant follow your cycles. LOL. i am so sorry yeahs(: but it must have been my inner fury again. ahhahahha. *looks innocent.

and about Bernice and Her K4. ahahhahah. she was practically swooning over the so called 4 Hot K4s. LOL! i am not involved, i swear XD

SLACK MAN.

2006-02-20T20:48:00.000-08:00

my arms hurt.
my eyes are heavy.
my body is basically LIMP.

biology and chinese? dont talk about it. lets just say they were fine :D

training today! not really funn, cause well, wasnt feeling very well. and my arms were so painful for i dont know what reason. so when we were supposed to do hard effort, i was leading wanmei into Slack-town. ahhaha. sorry(:

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ZAKKIIIIIIE

and people can be so weird sometimes :D
<3 figgy & Wings (HEHEHE)

lost. i am so lost.

2006-02-17T15:36:00.000-08:00

HA.
now wanmei knows me better than before :D
i have lots of mood swings.
and that giving faces mean something was done wrongly.
ahhahahahh XD

and. suddenly. my life is like flooded. with such mysterious people and happenings. i am so lost! i dont know what to do. its not like i am particularly interested in Those kind of stuff. hee. thank god i got figgy <3

training! tiring, but i felt a strong sense of achievement :D and i just found out. i am scared of thunder. ahhaha. its like. dropping something on me, but it doesnt reach me, but i can feel the impact. AND i bet you dont know what i am talking about. ahhahhah. anyhows. we didnt do water training today. cause well. there was the presence of lightning and thunder, so i suspect we will literally get CHAO-TA if we went out. ahhahahhha :D imagine wanmei...

so we did Running instead. all the way up the Tar Road, as coach calls it. to the K2 shack then down the slope again. we did that 10 times and coach tried to make us SPRINT up the tar road. its like suicide. i swear. but i did try my best. and i am so proud. i only walked along the K2 shack once. ahhaha. i dont know why i did it. XD still.

CRESCENT CANOEING TEAM.
DESIGNATED TO SUCCEED :D

dear <3

2006-02-14T20:40:00.000-08:00

i am back, world.

ahhahaha. training on monday was fun(: gave wanmei and FULL lecture the day after. which is today. which is VALENTINES DAY. i love my dear(: ahahha. hes so KAWAII NE. he calls me honey! :D wanmei has heard about it. ahhaah

and this guy came today to talk about Singapore & Malaysia & Indonesia. i thought it was pretty enriching. and engrossing. somehow, other crescentians didnt think so. since we got such a scolding about our behaviour after that. anyhow. i thought what he said was cool.

DART TEAM.

and i am so proud of Singapore. it has proved its worth in times of adversity. with other countries(: of course(: now we are all friends! i love Singapore. i love our SAF. i am such a fan. i mean. i dont know how to exactly express my sense of nationalism(: still. whatever Lieut. Colonal um. SIR said was so engrossing. i have decided. i shall be in the ARMY when i am older(: future job! :D how can let my sense of strong nationalism go to waste(: ahhahahaha. dont laugh man, jelly and figgy :D

DEAR! i am so glad i met you (:

HELP THE MAIDS

2006-02-10T14:12:00.000-08:00

had training today.
felt so FAT and SLOW):

but its fine. as i said. its a test of our determination as well as will power. hahahahaha. and wanmei and i went out for lunch today. it was hilarious. we met this selling roses guy for donations and he approached us for a donation. it went like this :

guy : heyy! you all from crescent girls school right?
wanmei : errr.
shuyun : =.0!

we were wearing our School Uniform.

guy : anyway. do you all have boyfriends?
wanmei & me : NO.
guy : umm. okay. do you all have friends?
wanmei & me : NO.

it was obvious he wanted us to buy the roses for our friends, since we didnt have boyfriends, so we said NO. ahhahaha.

guy : woah. okay. no friends. okay. what do you think these roses are for?
wanmei : er. valentines day?
guy : WRONG. ahhaha. its not for valentines day! its for donation!
wanmei & me : .....
guy : do you all have maids?
wanmei & me : NO.
guy : okay. have you all heard about philippino maids coming here to Singapore to find a job as a maid, but end up working in a job that was not described in the work permit thingus...
wanmei : (whisper) do i even read news.
guy : okay. so these roses are to help them raise funds to buy an airplane ticket back home. its $5 for a rose. do you all think you are able to help?
wanmei & me : NO MONEY):
guy : aww. come on. i know crescent girls all very rich one. i have a sister in crescent girls too. open her wallet only, 1k, 2k.
wanmei & me : $.$!
guy : yeah. see you all so sexy today.
wanmei & me : *sweatdrop*

so we ended up buying. hahahahah. he is so suited in the salesperson job. haha. only know how to sweettalk. hahaha. still. the roses are nice :D

IGNORE ME ONE LOR

2006-02-08T12:30:00.000-08:00

to my brother in NZ :
i promise not to use anymore Singlish.

MY AH MAH KEEPS FEEDING ME FISH. she says it would help to make me stronger and less chances of being sick again. and this auntie gave me this BEEG pill of FISH OIL. says, it would help in maintaining good lungs? and clear the thoat thing o.0

boring. lots of homework. and missed tests.

i.. miss you. alot.
i.. hate you. too.
why did you give me so much joy?
why did you disappear the next?
i want you back in my life ):

cross my heart and hope to die.

figgy.. ):

2006-02-07T20:02:00.000-08:00

IGNORE ME.
*cackles*

stupid sherilyn. ahhaha. make me crack up so much. until i got coughing spasms. PAIN LEH. hahaha. she says she is going to make me die. by whacking my body with the sweeper. LOL. and i didnt realise i had the sweeping duty! gawd. and kalok. WHAT ROAD SWEEPER HUH! ahhahaha.

rawrr. and the i not stupid too is just so touching(: recommended. seriously. i felt a mixture of slight happiness and sadness. i watched it and thought of.. You. i hope, you are doing fine? and i am extremely upset that i am no longer part of your life. *hugs. sweet little thing(':

heex. still the music is nice. courtesy of sherilyn. ahha. and the walking like gangsters scene is so cool! ahha. and all the feelings of Brotherhood and loyalty to friends. sigh. where to find such friends? i want one too): boys get to have it all. >__>

and. i am in a-maths remedial. i hope it would help me! i cant afford to fail anymore. and i am starting to think that maple is taking up too much of my time. i need to formulate a study plan. for the entire week for the entire year. i cant afford to lose myself. not this year. no way.

and! the fun-fair. at crescent. heex. i am supposed to do something about it? have i started? no. i need to get cracking soon. TMR. go consult wanmei. who i think will help. i hope. ahah :D anyhows. i am off to study for my e-maths. must keep up my 20/20 state. to pull up for midyears or common tests. i would surely need that boost.

and figgy. what happened to you?
widdle sister is worried):

sigh. figgy.

2006-02-06T22:34:00.000-08:00

havent been posting.

okay. training for canoeing, training for maple, studying for subjects have got me all occupied. i am so tired i cant keep awake while typing this. so please ecxuce the nad spelling. what was i daying..?

the work load they give in school is so. heavy. and i am certain i cant cope in many of my subjects! what am i to do. and with all the class and team schemings. i am dying. save me somebody.

and i didnt go skating.
): figgy.

figgy <3

2006-02-03T23:21:00.000-08:00

alot happened.
tears fell.
apologies given.
punishment carried out.

and

figgy <3

figgy <3

2006-02-01T16:15:00.000-08:00

these are not memoirs of other kinds, but the Memoirs of a Geisha

i like that sentence. ahah. sorry. but it sounds cool to me XD new year. the most SIGNIFICANT thing that i can remember is I PLAYED MAPLE AND LEVELED TO 40. ahhaha. fiona is so going to scream. LOL.

and the freaking shinkita is so expensive. i dont have money! someone donate me please. hahaha. decided to wait and buy the level 60 Geta afterall. FUND me please. ahhaha.

anyhows. i guess, new year's excitement each year is ebbing away for me. no idea why. but i cant seem to find any interest in those visits thing. though i do go for respect sake(: aint i good. ahha. i played MaJong sumore :D lost every game. ahha. cause playing with Experts! self-denial. ahhaha.

and ms ang isnt going to kick us or close the CCA afterall. scared us all. and stupid wanmei! how can she not read the former posts and make me do something about it. and the archive thing doesnt work at all. the most is the whole blog goes blank. i am stuck): sorry mei. i try to do something XD

ICE-SKATING ON SUNDAY
FALL FIGGY FALL! XD
(shall push peizheng down too;
not that i am not going to fall too.) LOL :D

figgy <3

2006-01-27T18:49:00.000-08:00

lets all be together.
in times of trouble and fear.
we'll give each other a helping hand.
and together we'll stand.

figgy <3

figgy (:

2006-01-26T21:42:00.000-08:00

figgyfiggyfiggy! :D

that was random. anyhows. there was training today. as well as a-maths test. as well as social studies test. ahahha. busy eh! a-maths. ZATTAI fail. urms. social studies. i think i can MAKE IT. and um training. TIRING. ahhha. well, not exactly. but i gain ONE MORE KG. GOD. SOMEONE SAVE ME. i am fat. (laughs at bernice and hiankek's expressions) hhahahah XD

er. nothing more to say. and today wasnt exactly lucky):

figgy <3

2006-01-24T21:18:00.000-08:00

boiledbeetle:
level : 37
fame! : 40
percent : 43%

lookit that! great improvement can. ahha. from 6% YESTERDAY to 43% today. i am so proud of myself. ahhahaha. and i have sinned. for i am playing when i am supposed to feel worried for my a-maths and social studies tests on thursday. gosh): i feel stressed. ahha :D

i Really love Fireboars and Dark Axe Stumps :

1. i found a red shadow top +4 DEX
2. i found a wooden top
3. i found 1675696079346 saps of ancient tree
4. i found a white *piettre skirt for level 40 bowman Female
5. i found a polearm... level 10. heh. (sold it) ahhahaha.
6. i found a green able skirt for bowman level 15. (sold it) hhahahha.

so many things right! so fun. ahha. and this guy(: was so nice. he gave me money and orange potions. haha. when i tried stealing his fireboar's tooth and 104 mesos. hes nice, so i gave him a Maple Hug. ahahha :D but well, anybody who gives me money to buy potions are nice. cause right now. i am so Broke on mesos): ahha. have to SCRIMP can. just to get potions. not nice.

and i cant believe i found so many things! this is way cool. ahha. i am hoping for a kumbi from the fireboars the next time. HEHEHEH. shall go check up on what the respective monsters drop and wish that they really do drop it for muaz! ahha. i also want to level faster! become level 40. can wear new clothes(: and by then, i hope i have scrimped enough to buy my ATT 60 clean shinkita for 2.1m. or, maybe i'll look for a better one, cause ATT 60 isnt exactly good. ahha.

i got a blister. from paddling. it hurts. and secretes white transparent blood. coolx.
*wug* :p

figgy <3

2006-01-23T21:30:00.000-08:00

hello.

i hate mondays. so much math content in my brain, i feel as though its not mine. hahhaa. wait. do i even have one? hahahahha. yeps. and we got a new chemistry teacher. ms gowri. sounds familiar eh! ahhaha. not bad, actually. doesnt mind if shes teaching something about particles and there you are changing your screensaver. ahhaha. LOL. wonder who was that who was changing her screensaver right under her nose. ahhaha.

we had english, geog, chem, e-maths, a-maths and the most awaited period everyday, RECESS. ahhahaha. it was a funny affair. we were talking about australians. i want to study in australia too! that'll be so fun(: and speaking of which. i am going to be so sad when figgy leaves): shall make the most of this year! ahhaha. *wug*

then had training. it was eventful. i think. me and mei were in K2 as usual. ahhaha. and coach told us the distance we are most proabably going to compete in today. i was trying not to frown when coach told us to go do 1000m. why do we always get the long distance? it aint fair. ahha. but its fine, now that i look at it. we did 3 races. paired up with amanda and jiayi. not bad(: i should say. was slacking for the first race, until mei was getting irritating and woke me up from my slack-iness. ahha. so we made it in the end. beat jiayi and amanda in every race(: ganbatte yo, jiayi and amanda! :D

and. urm. lots of tests this week. i am so dead.
i want to play maple. sigh.

figgy(:

2006-01-21T13:36:00.000-08:00

boiledbeetle:
level : 36 (as usual)
fame! : 38
percent : 89%

i am like a fairy in Peter Pan. i can only hold a certain amount of feeling in myself at a certain point of time. only one feeling. like, anger, resignation, sadness... and it takes a long time for me to get over it. as long as one day. i've come to realise i am so freaking sensitive and i cant accept changes as fast as i thought i am able to. and people that i know can make a difference in my life doesnt realise it and that makes me sadder. until i start, again, to question my existance in the world.

that is sad. i am sad.
can someone explain why am i feeling this way?

anyhows. we had training on friday. i wished for rain, and it came. with thunder and lightning no less. so, coach didnt allow us to paddle, for fear of us being electrocuted? ahhaha. i think. cause well. water is a good conductor of electricity. and so. the sec1s were sent back to school at 5.30 when the rain finally stopped and poor them, no chance to get on the water): anyhows we did. wanmei and i did 5 rounds of 500m. until 6pm. guess what time i reached home?! 8.10pm. god! that is so freaking late! the sky was already so dark, and there i was, freezing in the bus. i swear, my fingers were totally numb. ahhaha.

and. i watched Memoirs Of a Geisha yesterday.
wasnt particularly special. heh :D

figgy (:

2006-01-20T21:20:00.000-08:00

everyday will not pass unless it makes me question my existance.

sorry to say this. but what is with people? why are they so weird. like me. you may think you know me, but i am a bottomless pit when, IF you can reach the bottom, you'll see me in a new light. thats how much secrets, and stuff i dont say to you, amount to :E not very nice to know eh? aahaha. and thoughts are just something to muddle you up. things dont make sense at all. i've got a lot of questions for people who are able to answer them, if anyone can at all.

and what is with a person's character? there are many different kinds of characters and personalities, i know, but why are we so different? and still able to communicate just the same?

the puzzles of life;
may never be unlocked.
to me.

Lucky!

2006-01-19T20:22:00.000-08:00

i love fireboars & dark axe stumps.

1. i found arwens glass shoe.
2. i found at least 10 saps-of-ancient-tree.
3. i found a red pole-feather hat.
4. i found a black jester.
5. I EARNED LOTS OF MONEY!

mwahahah. they are all going to the fund for my shinkita! i cant wait to buy one. haha. well, if i can. HEH!

todays school was interesting. and i am not referring to the lessons. i meant after school when divya and fiona came over from G2 to talk. i think. and they started mimicking teachers. i shant mention which teachers to protect them. hahaha. anyhows. i was so freaking AMUSED. and laughed like hell. i mean! divya is so cool in mimicking! she can do it so perfectly. i am so delirious. LIKE! FREAKING HELL COOL!

i had training after school today too. wasnt that productive. i hate weights training. cause right! during water training, the paddling makes me feel stronger than i think i am, but when we have weights training, i feel as though i am so weak, i am not fit enough to compete. those freaky weights are so intimidating. well, not really, but yeahz. hhahah. and the juniors had training with us today. i swear, i have never seen the warm-up circle so huge and the gym room so noisy before. and, they are pretty nice. haha. very sociable. unlike MUAZ. ahhaha. i think, i'll appear as very anti-social and stupid to them. but, i dont care XD ahhaha. cause, i AM stupid and anti-social. ahha.

and. fiona's desk is as messy as ever.

buaiz.

2006-01-18T15:56:00.000-08:00

i had writers block during literature test today.
go imagine what is going to happen.

figgy <33

2006-01-17T19:00:00.000-08:00

boiledbeetle:
level : 36 ):
fame! : 33 (it increased okay)
percent : 47% (it WILL increase)

omg. chinese was such a scary period. ahha. i thought the chinese teacher was such a nice, caring and friendly person, but i was so wrong. welll, maybe cause we aggrevated her first, but she sorta like, Overreacted. she was practically screaming in class, just cause me and charmaine didnt learn the short sentence by heart and i FAILED my spelling. ahha. and cause my group, most of the people didnt complete the chinese comprehension or didnt bring the book. so she was like, 'GROUP ONE IS THE MOST ATROCIOUS GROUP I HAVE EVER COME ACROSS IN MY LIFE!' in chinese of course. so i was there, trying the fight back my laughter. she looked so comical. ahahhahahah. and when she reprimanded me for not learning the dumb sentence by heart, i was giggling. BWAHAHAHAH. like, i've never had a teacher like that! gawd.

and that, i think, was the most eventful happening for the day. and chemistry was a hoot. ahhaha. we were on the first level. anyhows. I SORT OF WOUND UP SITTING IN FRONT OF THE SINK. thanks, gowri. ahhahaha. how the hell am i supposed to write?! on water?! no way! hahah. but tis okay. ahha. i dont want to sit somewhere else with someone i dont like / dont know. ahha. ANTI-SOCIAL ME. yayy! ahhaha. so we had chem today! we played with filter paper. and ions. and lots of chemicals. thats about all i remember. ahhah. and i was so puzzled with the filter paper that i started following whatever gowri was doing. even when she was not doing anything related to the test. Bwahah. she laughed at me, by the way. ahhaha.

and you know! sometime during one test the teach was doing, the class started filling up with something hazy. ahha. people were like, EVACUATE! i was one of them that was totally in for it. ahhaha. gowri said i was overreacting. but seriously! i mean, who inhales something that is totally foreign?! i dont want to die here. but maybe gowri doesnt mind inhaling something foreign. i mean, her brain isnt there anymore, so whats the harm? SHE BETTER DONT SEE THIS.

sigh): gots like, 2 tests tomorrow. and e-maths and a-maths homework. if i dont do it, i am so screwed. ahhaha :P

FIGGY <3

2006-01-16T22:05:00.000-08:00

boiledbeetle:
level : 36 (still...)
fame! : 32
percent : 47% (well. it increased a little.)

ahah. we had training today! IT WAS FREAKING COOL. hahahah. well, maybe for wanmei and MUAZ! and the sec1s came and we had a free bus ride! well, ms ang had a bus to bring us to macritchie! ahahha. (save another 45 cents) LOL. but hor! i tell you. THAT bus was SO slow! i bet, if we got off and pushed it, it would move FASTER. i mean seriously! how can a bus move so slowly?! GOD. you should see it. we are passing by a bus-stop. 5 minutes later, we are still at the bus-stop. go figure.

anyhows. so much for the Welcome Tea. ahhaha. all we had was curry puffs and ice lemon tea. ahha. well, not bad already larhs. since, normal training, we have WATER VAPOUR! cool yeahz. ahhaha. the sec1s were arranged into their boats and we into ours. as usual, wanmei and i took Our Darling 12 XD ahahha. ma boat! our boat! :D

so coach made us do 750m. at the least 8 rounds. from starting to 750 and back is One round. so mei and i did 8 rounds + 1k XD SEE MEI. LETS COUNT IN PROPER MATHS :

750 + 750
= 1.5k

1.5 x 8
= 12k

SO, in total we did :

12 + 1
= 13k XDDDDDDD

yayy! its way more than the former training! where we did 8 rounds of 500m. which is... 8k. THATS LIKE SO MUCH MORE IMPROVEMENT! from 8k to 13k! gawd(: i am so proud(: ahhaah. well, as i promised mei and mei promised me, we are going to work HARD and WIN more than just a THIRD(: although third is recognition alright, but we've always been getting third! this year, we are going to Improve! YES. we are going to improve. we are going to aim High. Higher than just a third(: AND WE WILL ALL TRY OUR BEST, i am sure(:

andand! thanks mei. i shall not deny that i have creativity!!!! BWAHAHAHAHHA. thanks :D just cause i made an envelope all by myself. ahha. in the Royal Purple(: and mei was so proud of me and she was saying how i can score in art. and i was like. I CANT DRAW MAN. hahaha. so she said then, i had creativity. so i was like. I SHALL NOT DENY THAT! and she was like: =.=!

i talked to figgy during lunch today! he totally made me laugh. MEANO. ahha. still. he owes me ice (s)!!! ahhaha. we even pinkie-shaked(: haha. FIGGY <3 beams-

hahaha.

2006-01-14T14:40:00.000-08:00

boiledbeetle:
level : 36
fame! : 31
PERCENT : 35%

ahahha. now, i shall start every post with what lvl, fame and percent my bandit is! yayy! its freaking lame, i know. but still. ahha. and i am still so far away from achieving my New Year's Resolutions.

1. get a SHINKITA
2. get to level 50
3. get haste
4. earn lots of money

ahhahaha. i am such a maplefreak. (self-proclaim) LOL. and i've been thinking about my last post(: i am such an idiot. although there are things that may be so bad, i still got my friends and people i love(: like. FIGGY(: ahah. hug(: hahaha XD

and competitions are coming! soon, my blog is going to be filled with lots of posts about training! ahah. look forward to it! well. if i am not busy playing maple or sleeping or doing homework or urm. just plain busy. ahah. i talked to COACH yesterday! ahah. he was question my alone thingy. and i was like. NOTHING you are going to know. bwahahahaha. so he asked about thursday's training and the number of people that signed up on CCA day. i was all complaining about the 5 sets of abs training that ms lim made us go through. ahha. he was like. good.. good... HAHAHA. i guess it is good :D

and MEI! no way are we going to slack! YADA! cause. we are NEVER going to let jiayi and amanda catch up! we are going to train so hard! until we can achieve what we Really want! and its not just a 3rd! YES. and. muacks. ahah. lubxxX yewxXXx :DDDDD

heh. cells?

2006-01-13T21:20:00.000-08:00

today was CCA open house day.
it was a riot. blah. blah. blah.
and we ended at 5.00pm. i think.

i am sad.
why do people think in the most FUNNY way.
why am i the only one who takes note of it all.
why am i anti-social.
why do people care about how they look.
why do people contridict themselves.
why cant we understand ourselves.
why do people like to be cool.
why do people like to be IN.
why do people act so Bitchy.
why cant people understand me.
why do i even exist at all.

NOBODY KNOWS ME. NOBODY.
not even myself.
although i am have caring friends,
i laugh in school like theres no tomorrow.
BUT WHY DO I FEEL SO ISOLATED?

bottled-up feelings and opinions.
someone save me.

bored. BORED

2006-01-12T22:18:00.000-08:00

I FOUND OUT SOMETHING TODAY.

i get cranky when i dont have enough sleep and my tolerance level just drops DRASTICALLY.

hahaha. really. i get irritated at the slight BABBLING and BABBLING and BABBLING of people into my ear. i even got annoyed at my own sister while walking to school. hee. though SHE is already annoying by nature. MWAHAHAHAHAHAH.

yeah. so i came to school in a very irritated and annoyed manner and was so !@#!^&* BO CHAP until i didnt say hello to wanmei. ahhaha. I HEARD HER TWO LEVELS UP THE FOUR STOREY BUILDING. like, hello, ms loudy. ahhaha. (dodges the eggs and tofu and whatever wanmei throws at me) did i mention loud voices get on my nerves when i am annoyed? ahhaha. but this is wanmei we are talking about, so surprisingly, i didnt get irritated. more like, i got AMUSED. ahahhaha. (god. i got hit by an egg. a rotten one too.)

anyhows! ahhaha. my mood inproved right after that. hee(: stuupid woMAN. ahha. went to assembly smiling. geez, what an impact MY PARTNER have on mua. LOL. and what an impact i can MAKE on her too... XD

so lessons.. blah blah teachers. blah homework. blah blah subjects. and then we had training! ahah. yup, we had training. and on thursday, i am the only one who gets released at 2pm. ONLY ONE. like, what can i do all alone): not that i am already ANTI-SOCIAL. like DEER wanmei always reminds me. GEEZ. at least i gots PeiZheng! YAYY! ahah. and we did FIVE sets of abs training. coach must be laughing somewhere in singapore. FIVE sets of pick-up-flowers, FIVE sets of cycling, FIVE sets of penguins, FIVE sets OF SIT UP LEFT RIGHT LEFT RIGHT and FIVE sets of worship. god, and i still feel as fat. ahhahaha. not to forget the jumping jacks as well as the 10 rounds of running! lets just say, i am glad to be still ALIVE! ahahah. all by the courtesy of ms lim. (this is so *C.A.)

we started discussing about the CCA open house TMR! which is convienently Friday the Thirteen. HEH. maybe it wouldnt rain. ahahha. had to resechdule the entire team of their shifts. (which, in my HONEST opinion, no one would heed tmr) and mua, wanmei, peizheng and suiping are in the PIONEER shift! erms. ahhaha. we get to HAVE the honor of heeding the shifts. LOL. sigh. its only the second week of school and already. i am bored out of my socks):

and. figgy(: i hope you are doing well(:

*CHILD ABUSE

canoeing competition!

2006-01-11T22:58:00.000-08:00

OKAY!

i am all gung-ho for THE NATIONALS. ahhahaha. which most probably die in an hour's time. LOL! ahhaha. but i can sense the seriousness of it all(: and the part i LOVE about canoeing is the competitions(: seriously. its the only fun part! and the only place where we can scream all we want :D

anyhows. the mock races still have to be started and the different races determined. i am so freaked. i hope coach wont put me and wanmei in the K2 1000m! that is so freaking long please! i dont want to DIE again. well, maybe i didnt die. but still the training was horrendous. we did the T2 1000 and the T2 750. i think, both of us know what it is about. BUT hopefully! coach doesnt remember about our long-distance races before and put us in K2 500m(: *crosses fingers*

and this year's OBS and the common tests before it! OMG. things are moving too fast already. although i dont mind OBS, cause well. it seems interesting! ahah. but i am not really in for the idea of SAND FLIES and HOT STARK NIGHTS and MOSQUITOS and HEAT and the people i am going to camp with... LOL. ahahha. i hope they are not those kind who dont like lame jokes. cause i dont click with those. and OBS without LAUGHTER is totally suicide. for me, at least. heh XD (and i wish figgy would be there...)

ahhaha. anyhows. i had an E-Maths test today. it was fine. ahhah. more than i expected XD and well. i bet it was for everyone... except HIANKEK who missed out question TWO. sigh. poor girl. ahhaha. patpat :D and WANMEI gave me NARUTO to watch! gosh(: i lurvee that partner of mine(: LURVEE! (see this, wanmei..) ahhaha(:

canoeing training.

2006-01-09T21:18:00.000-08:00

it was rainy.
and that, was the Understatement of the Year.

i was S-T-A-R-V-I-N-G!
i was singing this to wanmei. LOL! ahhahha. anyway. before we get there. the Sec1s joined us today! for training that is. and only 8 turned up. (what do you expect) hmms. so we went by bus! peizheng & me! took the chartered bus! ahhahaha. (save 45 cents. LOL) gots aircon and was complaining about the fact that SOMEONE is way richer than both of us put together in maple. i will not be angry/annoyed/portray and or possess the GiveUp attitude(: THATS COS I AM A NICE GIRL. ahhahahahaahhaha.

so we reached. and it was already RAINING. but we still went out anyway. got throughly wet in 10 SECONDS. (or is it lesser?) wasnt freezing, tho but my glasses went all fogged up till i cant see much except all the droplets on the lens. and a Sec1 thinks i look familiar! and asks if i was from Raffles. i gave her the i-dont-think-so-this-is-shuyun-the-silly-and-stupid-you-are-talking-to look. ahhaha. but i dont think she is convinced. haha.

took a K2 out with peizheng. cause SOMEONE (named wanmei) wasnt there. ahha. had late classes. and LEFT HER PARTNER ALL ALONE IN MACRITCHIE. nice. ahha. but she turned up anyway(: ahha. but not after i did a 500m with peizheng. wasnt that bad. IT WAS REALLY STABLE. *coughs* ahahha.

and after wanmei came. we took a K2 (our darling 12!) haha. coach directed us to 500m for our warmup and when we came back, he asked us to do 500m laps XD wasnt that bad. we are supposed to do a minimum of 6. we did EIGHT! yayy!! ahha. we were trying to aim for TEN, but the rain came again. heh. patpat, bernice and heidy(: anyhows. we did try(x and i promised wanmei we wouldnt slack :D ahah. cause competitions are around the corner and if we slacked, that would not give us any chance to aim for the top(: GANBATTE!

oh. and we saw a lot of other schools training as well. it was stressful. seeing how they can go so fast. but most of the fast ones were boys, so i guess its fine, since we are girls. ahhaha. but still. oh! and when we came back from our eighth, reaching the ending point, catching up with the T1s. (they are like. 2km BEHIND us. god) coach was like, "How are you feeling?" to wanmei and me. so i just answered, "Fine." wanmei said, "We can do another round if you want us to." and that was true. ahha. i felt so energetic. hee. and when i said FINE, coach and his friend started laughing. like. WHAT ARE WE SUPPOSED TO SAY?! lol. and i was like, "What?" and they just carried on laughing. (like as though they betted on what we are going to say when coach asked the question and COACH lost so they are laughing) ....... i am curious to know the actual fact why. hmms..

competitions coming soon! i cant wait! XD

heh.

2006-01-08T14:32:00.000-08:00

i changed blogskin again. heh. like, state the obvious. ah. i think i am ponning tuition AGAIN. well! it doesnt help when it is just simply so boring. and my grades dont change, although they did rise a little. not much and then its back from space to earth again. sigh. i am practically a failure in everything! why do i exist.

training on monday. and the only senior there who lets of at TWO. so i'll be all alone with the teach and a bunch of freaky sec1s (if they even turn up at all). gosh. that is so scary! i need my partner. LOL. wait, the teach makes me take charge of everything. that what am i going to do?! say : i cant do this. or just hide behind a tree. great. i just love the new timetables of sec3s):

and i cant take my mind off maple! that is BAD. verybad. and i have like so much homework i cant cope with and tests already pouring in. how i wish i was still in sec1. ahhaha. the fun of not knowing ANYBODY in the school and have fun making new friends! ahha. now, i think, getting to know each other is kinda hard, cause, we already have our own cliques and everybody is like, I WISH I WAS IN DADADADAD'S CLASS! ahhaha. i am one of them. i miss fiona. alot):

2006-01-05T07:19:00.000-08:00

LOL! for Private Eyes Only.

HEY! i said PRIVATE EYES!

an example of how, Great Minds Think Alike.

that. was really lame.
on my part. that is.

school. starts. how. boring.

2006-01-04T06:26:00.000-08:00

*coughs

school has started.
yipee.

hahaha. that was so excited sounding. NOT. mwahahahhaha. its been only two days. and i am bored until my socks have shrivelled up...? ahhaha. whatever that means. geez. sec3 is like so new! and the textbooks are like. (hey! is that a brick?) [=].[=]

okay. we are in different classes! i am still trying to grasp mine and their timetables): so we can have recess together(: ahah. i cant get over the fact that they divided all of us into different classes. how unlucky is that. geez. ahhaha.

okay. i got no comment for school):
and wanmei! wait yeahs. i will post the PICTURE OF US KISSING up soon XD

when in el nath.

2005-12-29T18:32:00.000-08:00

when in El Nath,

smile when the El Nath-ians frown.

phishy:

phishy count : 52

yayy!!!

cats eye.

2005-12-27T21:21:00.000-08:00

canoeing held its sports trial yesterday.
and SOCKIE thought it was a totally shout.

out of like, Thirty-Two sec1s we chose, only Twenty came for each shift. so much for calling. they had to take the Paddle Lodge's kayaks. (or if they are called kayaks) and we had to carry it out for them! those things were Heavy. and its not just heavy heavy. it was Heavy Heavy. i got a bruise on my leg cause the thing kept rubbing against me and seeing how rough it was, i got it as soon i i finished carrying one of those touring kayaks that they pass off as safe equipment. ouch.

then we had to teach the sec1s how to paddle. forward, backward and sweep strokes. my two learners are totally unappreciative and they ran off when jane and i had our backs turned. like. WTH. anyway. i wasnt that angry or annoyed cause i didnt find them to be worth much of our time anyway. like, i tried getting them to do the paddle thingy and they were like. 'no! we know how it is done already' and they refused to show me how they 'knew' how. oh whatever.

it was a totally bad day. no wonder i woke up with stomach ache and a twitching right eyebrow. some subtle signal it was. i had to shout and like, act all Captain-y and nobody was listening. much less paying attention to pondscum like me. except mei(: ahahhaha. and a few others. and jane got teased about hunky guys.

now i got to this topic. i dont know what is wrong with my team. they go gaga over guys. and i mean, really random guys. guys they dont even Know. like. THAT GUY IS CUTE. THAT GUY IS HOT. er. right. i, personally, find it annoying. but i cant scold them like that when i dont like it, cause they are not me and i am not them. i think, i wouldnt bother even if he was the handsomest, cutest guy on earth. i just want to know them through their hearts. thankgod i am not like some members of my team! ahahhha. sigh.

and wonderful MEI is going to get me Cats Eye!
it looks like this :

i cant wait.

LEVEL 30 BANDIT!

2005-12-26T19:54:00.000-08:00

I AM OFFICALLY A BANDIT NOW!
(muahahhhahhahaha!)

i think i am losing my english or say, my imagination, or maybe, my life right now is just too boring. ahha. there is absolutely nothing to blog about! and those stuff that i want to say, are not meant for people like YOU to see. ahha. unless you are... (nevermind)

anyway. i am blogging because i have been booted off from maple by this really enraged daddy of mine. i dont know why. but he is angry because my younger sister is being invited to stay over at my aunty's house AGAIN and dad isnt exacty happy about it. i got no idea why, but still. anyway. so grandmama was angry about the fact that she cant contact my aunty and thinks that she deliberately hung up on her so that she didnt have to answer my grandmama and everything. that got her mad. and she got so mad, she started shouting and angered my dad. so my dad asked me to get off maple. and i just did.

sigh. and why am i like, always in the middle of a fight between my cousin and some other friend of mine? why cant they talk and be nice. LIKE ME. ahhaha. anyway. so they got into a fight and i was all. WHY ARE THEY DOING THIS. sigh. i am a bandit now! savage blow! XD

oooh. and calling the Sec1s. that was scary. ahha. luckily, mei helped! thankgod(: ahha. she called 3 and i called 4. and you know what?! only THREE out of my SEVEN agreed to come. others just gave like, i have something on tomorrow.. i cant swim.. and mostly is the parents' approval. it just wasnt there. oh what the hell. sigh. i am a failure. ahha. i almost barfed. expecially this mother who questioned me. ahha. it wasnt that bad. she said she was going to call back. HOPEFULLY, that girl would turn up. (crosses fingers)

and! mei and i and company are going homeworking again tomorrow! yayy! at tiong. ahhaha. nearest to MY house. i dont know. lets bring the tablet and go macs and play maple. Buahahaha. that isnt exactly studying. but still. its an idea... ahhah. MEI IS GOING TO GIVE ME CATS EYE!!! cool. she is the best partner i ever had. Buaahhaha. see this, mei. XD

i love being a ninja.
even if its make believe.

oh man.

2005-12-25T12:33:00.000-08:00

ohayo gozaimasu!

ahahha. its CHRISTMAS! i know i should have posted this at like, 12am yesterday, but i was tired. or so i think. ahha. i cant get enough of Naruto! it is so cool! i am over the moon about them being able to grow up somewhere where they can become Ninjas! that is so so so very KEWL. ahhahaha.

i have watched up till 25. i know its Slow! dont remind me. but i cant find the other CD. ahhah. sorry, wanmei. but i Know it is in this house! i'll find it, cause i want to watch it! XD they are at the Chunnin exam now! the forest of Death! omg. i read about it. some 3 team ninja that is supposed to complete some quest thingy. and each teams are able to Kill One Another! if one member of the 3 person team Dies, the team is Straightaway, DISQUALIFIED. wow, yeah.

oh. wait. i found the disc.

naruto skin-

2005-12-24T01:39:00.000-08:00

okay.

dont give me looks!
its the New In Thing. ahhahaha.
i think the Naruto anime is totally rocking cool(: like. there is so much action! i wish i had a forehead protector too! like, i am One Of Them.

KYAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA!

NARNIA.

2005-12-22T03:14:00.000-08:00

I WATCHED NARNIA!

it was freaking cool(: ahha. really! and this is not one of my insane statements again. Buahaha. serious. i think the Oldest Brother is reallyreally cute :D peter, was it not? ahha. anyway. the whole world must be swooning over him like me too, so. i dont expect this feeling of admiration to last. Mwahahaha. XD

but! his freaking sword was totally COOL. i mean like. who gets to hold a real sword anymore?! omg. i am sooo jealous): it was like this really nice shiny blade with a hilt of gold and silver. Really Grand. why cant this world still be like, ninja-y, so that we can hold swords / stars / throwing knifes / bow and arrows / shields... but then. i wouldnt be here typing away, cause then, i might have already been assassinated. hahahahaha. but still. I LOVE SWORDS / STARS / THROWING KNIFES / BOW AND ARROWS :D

and. i have to talk to the sec1s tomorrow. please excuse me. i am going to be sick.

ANNOYING. simply ANNOYING.

2005-12-21T02:18:00.000-08:00

MAPLE PATCHES ARE ANNOYING.

i just lost 10 years of my lifespan cursing the damn online game. and well, partly blaming my dad for being so INSENSITIVE. i hate myself.

you know why?! i already downloaded the ajfkfbbfsehjkdjfncjk patch and then it DID work. after that, DADDY started using and when i tried going into the game again. IT !@#^#&&@* DIDNT WORK. some idiotic freaking ERROR. kept asking me to download the NEW patch. i was like. I HAVE THE NEW PATCH, YOU !@#$%^&*`. I AM SO MAD. DONT TALK TO ME. I MIGHT PISS YOU OFF TOO.

i want to trottle somebody.
i want to become a ninja.
i want to wear an identity.
i want to be able to throw stars and knifes.
BUT I CANT. the horrible truth.

antisocial.

2005-12-20T01:24:00.000-08:00

announcement #1: (for all canoeists) there will be training on this coming Thursday at MacRitchie at 8am. dont forget to turn up.

announcement #2: TheBeetles welcomes the newest addition to the BanditFamily. boredbeetle! catch us on maple(:

my family never cease to irritate me.
and people wonder why i am an antisocial.

a child who lives with criticism learns to condemn.
a child who lives with hostility learns to fight.
a child who lives with ridicule learns to be shy.
a child who lives with shame learns to feel guilty.
a child who lives with tolerance learns to be patient.

i think. i know how to condemn, fight for myself, am shy and feels guilty everytime and i must say, with lots of practice from my sisters and mother, i am pretty patient. i love my family.

maplefreak-

2005-12-19T03:02:00.000-08:00

ohayo!

got to see figgy at last! hes nice(: ahha. and i think he thinks i am a shy idiot who cant order food by herself. he ought to see me in school. being rough and all. Buahha. Mitsumi suggests that we go out again in December. ahha. we'll see XD

anyways. had training today. was almost late. well, cause i missed a 132 bus. it is against me, really. i Always miss it. haha. but was there, nevertheless and trying to act like the Captain of the team, but. naturally, failing miserably. why am i in this state now? (lets blame someone-)

paddled like, 10km. it wasnt that bad. had maple on my mind most of the time. haha. cant wait to level up XD so i can hold a new weapon. Muaha. okay. that was really random. and guess what?! i have to face the Horror of speaking to Sec1s that are coming in on Friday. i am totally freaked. what if i, like, barf in front of them or something. i'd die.

and i havent bought my school books, neither have i done much holiday homework. and i need gao zhi.

JANE!!!

2005-12-12T07:03:00.000-08:00

(to fiona: i am sorry i didnt inform you of when i was going malaysia. but i was caught by surprise too. i must have been so shocked to remind anybody. serious. i even forgot to remind the team.i got into a pool of guilt okay! haha. anyway. i am really upset that you are not in the same class as me): really upset. maybe cause you've always been there and i didnt notice how much i had counted on you. to make me laugh. to bring stuff to school for me. to irritate me.. XD although its been a really cool year. i cant get enough of it. really sorry for all the stuff and insensitivity i have shown to such a nice girl like you in the entire year and i must say, looking back, i am really happy you have been there and i got to know you the second besides xinmu, the girl who sat beside me in secondary one! who didnt really speak at all): ahha. i am really glad. thankyou for making my life so happy and meaningful. someone to lean back on, someone to well, GOSSIP about teachers, urm, pupils in class... and someone there who is always ready to suan me too! SNIFFLES. this is getting long. i want you to know, tho, that you have been really really appreciated. (': HUG-)

hahaha. jane. janejanejane. you are such a nice little girl. XD ahah. she pulled me into some blog game! erps. haha. but it is kinda of interesting, if you look at it now. so here i am, actually typing this thing out. she says that i have to say 5 things about myself and list out 5 other people to pull into this game. I CAN THINK OF WHO! *hehe*

ONE : i tend to laugh very loudly. really. you should hear the loudest.
TWO : i am a picky eater. until i skip breaskfast and lunch.
THREE : i understand people. just that i dont express myself very well.
FOUR : i think of other peoples' conveniences and consider their feelings SUBconsciously all too often.
FIVE : i LOVE to suan people. well. if you are around me most of the time, and if i blurt sometime really mean, dont take it to heart. XD

okay. that was really hard. i took like what?! 30 minutes typing the above sentences): i am so indescribable. LOL. okays! the next five people to pull into the water..

BERNICE!
LYNETTE!
*hehe* FIONA!!
WANMEI. (again?)
TABITHA - lolx she doesnt have a blog...

AND! this is hilarious. its about MAPLE. (fine. laugh.) ahha. we made some kind of BANDIT team! cool yeahx! me, wanmei, tabi! and soon to be jane & peizheng, if they are interested. so currently, its just me, wanmei and tabi. we are called The Beetles. wanna know why?! my ID is boiledbeetle! and wanmei's ID is bakedbeetle! and tabi's (the gross-est) BLOODYBEETLE. lolx. and i chose the INSECT! how cool is that. well, i could have chosen BUTTERFLIES, but that is so... girl. ahhaha. beetle. cool. i cant get over the nicenice insect. (well, its not exactly nice, i hate bugs. BOTH living and digital.. gee..) anyway! and we are thinking of making a guild with the name The Beetles. but then, with only three members..?

capsize-day!

2005-12-09T04:54:00.000-08:00

i am so sorry to wanmei & the entire team & coach that i couldnt make it to training today): was horribly sick with swollen eyes. (i think, due to lack of sleep.. oots.)

anyways. yesterday was : CAPSIZE DAY!

we are a sad team. lost our balance just on the first water training after coach's return from the SEAgames in Manila. i am so sad): even the ~~i-wont-capzise-even-if-it-costs-my-life~~ jiayi, capsized TWICE. omg. ahahah. (<< that is NOT laughing/gloating/whatever you are thinking it is) wanmei and i (thankfully) only capsized ONCE! yayy! we are still the most-stable and also the MOST-reluctant to capsize partners XD

okay. i promised jiayi a really detailed one. but maple calls! LOL. (stop laughing, lynette!) my cass acc thief is already level 19! yayy! and the one in aquila.. well. its going to improve! AND I GOT PERFECT STATS! i am over the moon about it. XD and tabi is callin-

HIATUS - over XD

2005-12-07T03:58:00.000-08:00

hello!

fine. i shall no longer deprive my MOST dedicated readers(: and (beat my blogskin, fever!). ahha. been playing maple! maplestory(: ahha. the most nicest game ever. and MAGE does not rule(: the gamemaster does. LOL!

i started a new thief account in CASS! (sorry, tabi, but i'll make one in aquila too! wait for me!) its a level 15 now! cant believe the beauty of a thief. XD why didnt i make a thief earlier... gosh. met so many nice friends in the game. thats why i like it so. XD

fine. enough of that. training starts in macritchie again! coach is back from the SEAgames in manila. wow, that event is totally cool. XD imagine, training for a single event all your life. wow. super dedication. anyway! i am so proud of Singapore(:

okay. i really got nothing to say. and what i want to say, doesnt belong here XD till the next training!

2005-11-16T20:25:00.000-08:00

okay.
havent been posting.
been a busy busy busy busy little bee!

XD

OH DEAR.

2005-11-04T12:45:00.000-08:00

had training ~~today~~ yesterday.
was ~~not~~ raining.
felt happy anyway.
knowing that night would come

news flash #1

I LEVELED!! NOW I AM LIKE, LEVEL 28! MUAHAHAHAH. oh. wells, still got long way to go! BUT I HAVE SURPASSED JELLY! I AM SO ~~HAPPY~~ SAD. WHY DOESNT SHE LEVEL UP TOO?

class chalet in 2 days! time passes so fast. )': what more can i say.
okay. fine. i admit that i am bored silly at home(:

aww. man.

2005-10-31T20:11:00.000-08:00

news flash #1!

I MANAGED TO DOWNLOAD BLEACH 54 AND 55 FROM 2PM THIS AFTERNOON TO 7PM! WHILE I KNOW THAT SOME OTHERS ARE STILL WAITING PATIENTLY AT THEIR COMPUTERS FROM MORNING...

news flash #2!

HAPPY HALLOWEEN! I THOUGHT THAT THE PERSON ON GOLD 95 WAS JOKING ABOUT A 31 OF OCTOBER. BUT SEEMS THAT HE IS RIGHT. AHHA. I AM JUST SO DUMB. AND I AM REALLY HOPEFUL FOR A CHANCE THAT I CAN DO THINGS THAT PEOPLE TRADITIONALLY DO FOR HALLOWEEN): i love candy! but chocolate more(: *winks

maybe i havent been able to face it, but i am sad that people are leaving next year): especially those who i really really care about and want to continue caring for. i dont want to admit the fact that there is a huge possibility that the people who i really want in a same class may not be in the same class as me):

how do you describe friendship? it is some connection. a feeling of belonging. knowing that there is someone out there who would listen, no matter what it was about. that someone would laugh no matter how lame a joke can be. and people who are able to care even though they dont know how to approach you(':

people that you can spend hours with on the phone talking about... SIMS... training... tennis. and letting drag themselves on, trying to remember what they say and how their voices sound like, knowing that after changing classes, there may be possibility that they would not talk so carefreely to you like that again. ah, what can i do without them.

I LOVE ALL OF YOU(:
WILL ALWAYS LOVE YOU(:
AND I CAN REMEMBER THE HUGS AND STUFF WE DO TOGETHER(:

friends forever?

after-a-long-period-of-time

2005-10-29T11:38:00.000-07:00

oops. havent been posting! for quite a while already(:

holidays have started! days and days of doing nothing. except being stuck to the computer 24/7. ah wells. but it is kinda boring too, if i might add): so training comes in. 3 days a week, okay! that is real commitment. sighs.

andand! there is also the class gathering! staying over! so fun(: ahha. well. one last time with the people in your class since sec1. cause then, we are going to separate after this holidays): aint that sad. well, i think it is sad. )':

hmms. sorry peeps. ahha. really got nothing to blog about. the sadness of a boring life. nothing extraordinary(: but. all is well(:

hitsugaya! SIGH.

2005-10-20T21:01:00.000-07:00

heh.

got back my results! well, it wasn't that good. sheesh. HOPEFULLY I CAN GET INTO DOUBLE SCIENCES! really really really want to! anyhows. there was training today! and i took a k2 with her as usual! let's say that it was enriching. hahaa. JIAYI & AMANDA CAPPED... TWICE! hoho. never thought a day like this would come. oh well. it was because the 4 k2s were racing! so cool right!

however, racing put wanmei into like a panic state and she was all but trembling. well, and trembling makes the boat unstable. HOHO. get this, wanmei! haahha. but it is fine, actually. since it is the first time and all! but, for the next time...

we had 3 races! the first race was totally.. wet. ahahha. wanmei & i came in first! we were overtaken by True Choos somewhere in between, but we blew our breathe back! when we crossed the finishing line, i heard sounds. so i turned and To My Surprise! both the True Choos and bernice and huiqin were in the water. hahhaha. it was such a sight. and both were about to reach the finishing line too, you know! must be the newbie balancing thingy. oh wells. ahhaha. the second race was okay. except that we didn't get to race with True Choos cause they Capsized at the Starting Point!!! o.0 hahahahahaha! coach came down to rescue them, though. he started us off for the third race. we Tied with True Choos... well, at least, i think we did. ahhaah.

andand! i watched bleach 52-53 already! goshie! for those who haven't (like hiann kek & jaiyi(:) SPOILERS!!! anyway. yeah. renji fought with byakuya! with his bankai!!! which he like, only attained 10 minutes ago. hehe. but still!! he is just too cool! and that hair! gosh.. and byakuya is all being Look At Me, I Am To Be Respected & No-one Will Surpass Me For Another Decade. ahhaha. but he is cute too! haha. ah well. and ken-chan's fight with two taichous. i must comment that he is really really too powerful! i admire his powerfullness. hahha. and his fukutaichou. ahha. AND HITSUGAYA DID NOT APPEAR! ): aww man. i was looking forward to seeing his O-So-Cute-&-Cool face! well and i do like his zanpuktou! i wish i had a ice dragon. hmphs.

irritating people.

2005-10-14T22:10:00.000-07:00

like something that jiayi has brought up, people might get OFFENDED if i CLAIM those anime people that i mentioned in my profile.

EXPLANATION to those mighty OFFENDED people :

first of all, i am not claiming that they are MINE. cause i know that they are not. and if you are one of those really _____ people that goes around saying that, " OMG! _____ is so MINE! you are not allowed to touch or like them!", stay away from me, cause you just gets on my nerves. (with the exception on JIAYI(: and HIANKEK(:) people who say those kind of things are totally NON-practical, cause as you might know. a Million other people out there are also claiming what you are claiming right now. and it is kind of stupid to be saying that or getting angry just cause you have to share your ______ anime character, and fighting with some Million other people. IT IS SUCH A WASTE OF TIME.

those characters i have mentioned on my blog, i am just a FAN (with the exception of cancelled out characters), thank you. i am not going to say that they are MINE. cause, only dumb obsessive people says that. and i rather not have anything to do with them. people who come and proclaim THEIR characters, don't tell me. so that i will NOT hate you. thanks. oh. and DENISE! this is not in relevance to tezuka, by the way(: haha. just addressing the rest of the crowd.

geez. i am blogging nonsense, yet again. it was an okay day, i guess. ~~not~~ adding the fact that i didn't get to play tennis, was badmooding, got nobody willing to talk to, sister wound up ~~getting lost in yio chu kang~~ coming home late and all & had to attend A-maths.

hitsugaya!

2005-10-11T20:49:00.000-07:00

yes, i did something to my cookie and milk blogskin. haha. current fettish, see(: isn't he cute. wait. you can't see his face. but i shall tell you that he is VERY cute(: and cool(: ahahah. introduction; his name is hitsugaya toushirou! he also has a nickname called SHIRO-CHAN, meaning whitey-chan(: so cute, right?! anyhows. his soul-slayer is a water and ice dragon for his shikai. for his bankai, it is a lotus-looking fire one(: SO COOL, RIGHT?! and he is the 10th squad captain! plus he likes watermelons. now, that is one cute favourite fruit(: ahahah.

oh, fine. enough about him! escapes all the flying eggs. there was maths today! it lasted for two and a half hours. quite long for a torture period, i'd say. and i was made to go home and sit there all morning till night, while people like jiayi &CO went out to orchard? MOU! didn't even ask me): sho sad. anyhows. i was cheered up by the fact that i could stay at home and stare at hitsugaya's portrait that i have ~~drawn~~ copied by myself and hung on my cupboard wall! he is just too cute(: and cool, that it gives me happiness that seemed like i took drugs. haha.

gosh. the subject strayed to him again. oops. heh. anyhows! shall go mapling, cause TABITHA is ~~waiting~~ looking for me! wait, before i go. i have just found out the damn plot of BLEACH. which involves HITSUGAYA! yes. it was so horrifically nice. such a damned twist! i am so proud of the author of the show(: JA-NE! that's not jane, by the way. it mean see you later in japanese for those who don't know. -winks

history):

2005-10-09T13:36:00.000-07:00

HITSUGAYA!
SHIRO-CHAN! <3333

hahaha. yesyes. HE IS SO KAWAII! especially when he is frowning. wait. he is always frowning. i've never seen him smile(: haha. anyhows! he is still so cool! and his zanpaktou is just right and cool for him! a water and ice dragon(: his bankai! AHHHHH! i want.

heh. had history today): i don't know how it was. all i can say is that i didn't read instructions. so instead of 10 essays, i did 13 essays. sigh. my handwriting was all scribbly and unreadable by the last question. heex. but i managed to finsish it leh. haha. except for one 9 mark one): goshie. i am so going to fail. how could i have left out reading the instructions?! i am so dumb.

maths tomorrow!
may HITSUGAYA be with me(:
( like he was today! ; kinda distracting actually. the teachers must think i am a doofus, smiling to myself like that... )

exams):

2005-10-04T21:31:00.000-07:00

MOU!

the major exams still have yet to come! and we didn't have literature today. gosh. what is wrong with the teacher. our exams is THIS FRIDAY MAN! anyways. beeg thing happened today. we MOVED. yes, moved. to the ground level.

because we had a girl who had twisted her ankle and couldn't limp up the stairs. och. we moved the ex-4C1 class. no offense, but that place is superr dusty and humid feeling. you could practically feel the dust motes. the air was so... weird. you know, stuffy. and humid, cause we were all surrounded by GREENIES. goshie. i want to move back up! ): and the environment is so different. how are we supposed to concentrate?! huff.

&zakkiee didn't look too sick today(:
patpat/

maplestory.

2005-10-01T18:38:00.000-07:00

hehehehehehehehe.

i started maple before the exams ended. and in two days, i am already level 9! and i just realized that they are also such things as maple PERVERTS. geeez. just because i am a noob. doesn't mean that i am not MATURED. ahem. hahaha. made friends! nice people. people who make me laugh(: in a nice way. anyway. guilt is starting to overcome my interest in that game. shall not play anymore until exams are over. -cross fingers

english is over! english is over! kinda late for this celebration, actually. but it wasn't that hard, was it? i find that it was okay. sort of. i finished 15 minutes before that paper ended, when usually i end about right on the dot. hmm. something must be up.

chinese is next!

YAHOI!

2005-09-27T22:12:00.000-07:00

oops.

i should not be doing this. but oh well(: ahhaah. maybe i need to change the font colour to BLACK, cause, now when i look at my blog, it is kinda hard to read. hmmz.

and lynette&melissa! 8 october at cjc? what's going to happen? hmmXzx. i am curious. VERY curious(x
___________

Although the war was over, people still suffered from the problems that arose in the post-war years. One of the main problems was that there was a shortage of food. Rice-producing countries did not have enough or extra rice to sell to other countries due to the war and the problem is also worsened by the fact that many trading ships had been destroyed in the war. Ships that were destroyed and sunk near Singapore posed a problem as the sunken ships blocked the harbor that allowed trading ships to enter and transport goods into Singapore. The problem is also worsened-

history blues):

2005-09-21T20:24:00.000-07:00

BWAHAHAHAHAH.

that was taken from BLEACH! my current fettish(: but i haven't forgotten about SEIGAKU yet! it is still my LIGHT, SOUL & INSPIRATION! ahhaah.

oh, enough of that. fine. i shall cancel out my vow to NOT blog before exams commence(: ahha. since i don't think i am doing a very good job of keeping to it. xD but i did study(: i don't want to end up in some stream that i don't like): yesh.

and i have also been watching anime between breaks from studying(: i don't feel the LEAST bit guilty(: cause then, i know that there are people out there who haven't started studying! ooh. heehee. i have refrained from watching BLEACH, but i can't help watching POT! it makes me feel so energized(: plus the strong urge to start training & playing TENNIS! it is so nice a sport(: i can't wait for exams to come & go fast! so i can play all day(x i don't mind playing all day! just that there are people who can't play with me all day): ah wells. -carries on talking about tennis

and tezuka is also an inspiration(: i am going to learn from him! YAHOI! :D

it's late!

2005-09-18T00:25:00.000-07:00

here i am again.

currently listening to some funny chinese song by some person that my sister claimed that should not see the sunlight of the earth. haha. really. but he is okay, i guess(:

also doing MATHS 1. forgot that i had homework! don't worry, i have given it up and resorting to blogging now(: haha. maths teach ain't going to like it. but i did attempt the first few questions! trying to reddress myself.

and i made a realization today! that PRELIMS was spelt as prElims, not prIlims. oops. haha. no wonder it looked weird however i typed it(x and my board was flooded(: not an everyday thing! i must be so bored to be so random..

oh wells(: off to sleep(;
&MELISSA! no staying up no more! :D

ooh. cookies and milk!

2005-09-16T00:25:00.000-07:00

so i went blogskin-ing again. ahha. found THIS! isn't it COOL. hahaha. it is a nice blogskin(: i like it! about milk and cookies(: yumyum. i added the cursor words. it may seem irrelavent. but i am a very random person! ahha.

so i did not keep to my promises. about not posting until exams are over. oops. but studying is just too dry): i can't sit still for an hour. maybe for science, but the rest.. lynette's prilims are not over yet! i think. anyways, wish her all the luck for any other paper she still has to take! wraps up luck, put it into a bag and hand it to her.

SMILE. and zakkii changed blogskin(; she told me this morning. YAYY(: you are not the only one now! you are nice black, and i am nice white! o.0

studystudystudy-

exams.

2005-09-11T20:19:00.000-07:00

went blogskins searching today(: wasn't very productive, i'd say. ahha. all the skins i make are like, SO UGLY): ah well. exams coming! NINETEEN more days, to be precise. haha. will not post until then(:

afternote; ishida & soshi are still my LOVES(:

honto arigatou!

2005-09-07T20:10:00.000-07:00

CALL ME A SUCKER FOR SPECTACLED GUYS!
+ THE FACT THAT MOST OF THEM ARE SO TALL!

maybe you have guessed! i have fallen in LOVE!

in LOVE with ISHIDA URYUU! O ma goshie. WHY IS HE SO KAWAII?! ahhhhh! -faints. ahah. jiayi is so going to hate me again(: ahha. first it was SOSHI! O ma goshie. SOSHI ASAMOTO is another spectacled TALL KAWAII guy!!! gulps. haha.

soshi is so caring and nice and well, BOYFRIEND material(: ahha. at least, he didn't get another girlfriend when reiiko rejected him(: for NIGHT, so i guess, it is okay. ahah. and the fact that he went to spain! i cried when he finally returned(': at least, he is good enough to stay with reiiko in japan(: at least. haha. i also think KABUKI is kawaii(: ahha. but he doesn't wear spectacles. oh, but he is tall! hahaha.

ishida is another thing(: goshie! he looks so STEKI when he pulls the arrow thing! plus those really really NICE spectacles! so.. shiny. hahaha. but he is cute! and because he is tall, the quincy uniform he wears so makes him look KAKOYII! :D

BLABBERBLABBERBLABBER -

no regrets(:

2005-09-05T23:32:00.000-07:00

i feel like i've known you forever;
although i have only met you sometime last year;
but our friendship will remain forever;
no matter what shall cross our path and hearts.

the best thing that's ever happen to me;
is finding a forever friend like you;
you're there to listen, help, and talk to;
and best of all, i know that i can confide in you;

some say the best love is one sprung from friendship;
so I feel this is why we should try;t
ime leads us in this direction;
should we follow on down the line?

friendship and love are always intertwined;
too close which sometimes causes confusion;
but if we don't try, we will never know if it was meant to be;
but forever you will remain my friend;

i don't know if this is going to work;
i'm not totally sure we should try;
but I have all these mixed feelings;
bottled up inside;

i love you both inside and out as my best friend;
and I know that you love me that way too;
so when I say BEST FRIENDS FOREVER;
that even means when i'm saying GOODBYE, I LOVE YOU TOO!

(:

nothing

2005-09-02T14:44:00.000-07:00

~~monday; tuesday; wednesday; thursday; friday;~~ SAT ~~& sun~~

today was ARTS AWARENESS DAY! and i didn't go. sho sorry, jiayi, if you remembered to bring the bleach cds): sighs. it would have been a waste of time, anyway. i wanted to go, actually. but i wanted to sleep too(: hah. you should know which one i chose(: haha.

i think i am a really incompetent brat. hmph. people should not have chosen me as a team-captain! i am just not up to it. i don't know how to go about filling up that title, that duty. i just cannot gain any respect. i am just, some lame member of the team who has no self-worth. of all people to choose, ME. i don't know what to do, really.

maybe i need a change in attitude? hmm. people like melissa have no problems in gaining respect. people like zakkiyya and wanmei and bernice has no problems in making themselves heard. so why, of all the three people, ME? i refuse to understand.

things are so hard. the feeling is so strange. in people's eyes, i am just an insensitive person, a person who is not nice to get along with and somebody that nobody should pay any attention to. i think, if i have gone for the IP thingy, maybe, i can join NJC's tennis instead.

and the fact that nobody wants to play tennis with me! the whole misery. and i think, wanmei, that the tennis lessons offer you have come up with, i cannot attend. although it has its benefits and all. my father finally said that it was just to far away): so i am going to look for another one myself. and stop dragging too(: i can't wait to train for tennis! then maybe, in this entire wasted life, i can look forward to something, at the very least.

SIGH.

training.

2005-08-30T23:06:00.000-07:00

~~monday;~~ TUESDAY; ~~wednesday; thursday; friday; sat & sun~~

if there's so much i must be,
can i still just be me?
the way i am.
can i trust in my own heart,
or in my just one part,
of some big plan.
even those who are not with us,
we still go on, the journey has only begun.

TRAINING! :D

first. answer to jiayi's taggie about the MICROWAVE. haah. cause i saw this really sadistic picture with this cat inside the microwave oven and it had boils all over due to the heat! gosh, it was truely disgusting! but, still. ahaha. okay. that DONE!

training; took a K2 with mei! i think we are going to be in that boat for a long time to come. since there are bernice & heidy, siti & tabitha to take both the T2 races. yesh. together with amanda & jiayi, also in a K2! WE WILL MAKE THE CRESCENT CANOEING K2 HISTORY! haha. sorry, got carried away(: but, WE MUST HAVE THE WILL TO WIN! oops. sorry there. hehe. xD

coach also let bernice & heidy try out a K2! he ASSURED them, that it was only a testing. but bernice said it was fun(: i think my neck is just about to die! just paddling 6km straight had made it so tense. haha. and wanmei's fingers! they just went totally blood-deprived. it went numb, i think. haha. told her to rest already! hmph.

zakkiiee was also upset that she could not take a K2 out. it was evidently shown on her face. PATPAT. i thought you said that you think staying in a T1 is not that bad either? winning in a T1 race takes real effort! (: proud of my $400 fgriirelnd(:

THIS PARAGRAPH IS SPECIALLY DEDICATED TO THE 15-YEAR-OLD HITLER FAN OUT THERE. I AM NOT SAYING THAT HITLER IS NOT A GOOD LEADER AND EVERYTHING, INCLUDING THE FACT THAT YOU THINK HE IS HANDSOME. GOSH. ANYWAY. YOU, AS THE SINGAPOREAN, SHOULD HAVE LEARNT HISTORY, AND KNOW THAT HITLER WAS THE CAUSE OF WW2! IT HAD PUT OUR FOREFATHERS' LIVES AT STAKE AND THEY HAVE SACRIFICED SO MUCH FOR WHAT? FOR YOU TO SAY THAT HITLER IS YOUR IDOL. WHEN HE WAS THE ONE WHO CREATED SO MUCH PAIN AND HARDSHIPS FOR SINGAPORE. YOU OUGHT TO KNOW THAT YOU ARE JUST TOO LUCKY TO BE BORN IN THIS CENTURY AND WHATEVER YOU LEARN IN TEXTBOOKS, YOU JUST CAN'T FEEL IT, DON'T HAVE ANY FEELINGS FOR THE SINGAPOREANS WHO HAVE SUFFERED. NOW YOU JUST THINK THAT IS IS PART OF HISTORY. AND HISTORY IS HISTORY. I AM JUST SO SORRY TO SAY THAT YOU HAVE SO LITTLE CULTURE AND PRIDE IN YOUR COUNTRY TO HAVE MADE THAT STATEMENT. so there. HMPH.

AND GUESS WHAT? haha. my father got me anf my sister a ZEN NEEON!!! it is a MP3! ahha. 5GB, okay! holds up to 2500 songs. i am SO HAPPY! haha. have already downloaded my precious ANIME songs in(: though my sister was violently against that idea. HAHA. NANA NEE POO POO! haha.

take it in your stride & let it go.

champion seminar

2005-08-29T22:40:00.000-07:00

MONDAY; ~~tuesday; wednesday; thursday; friday; sat & sun~~

for a moment, all of me,
is alive and at home in the sea,
i'm swirling and twirling,
so graceful and grand,
not stubbing my toes, getting stuck in the sand!

CHAMPION SEMINAR!

we could finally attend the seminar. ahha. it was fun(: really. and we all got FREE towels! they are sort of dark maroon purplish colour. quite nice and i get to have a towel! at very long last(: ahha. COACH CAME! first we saw C KUNALAN. quite a humourous man. i like funny people. and we realized that coach is actually friends with him! ahah. COACH'S FRIENDS ARE OUR FRIENDS TOO, RIGHT BERNICE? ahha.

he made a speech. it was nice. talking about eating more chocolate! i like chocolate. hahaha. it was enriching. yes, it was. haha. it was funny too, so i did listen and not fall asleep! YAYY. finally. ahha. then we had a table draw. both of the canoeing tables did not get picked): but there is always the second and third draw!

COACH CANNOT PEEL APPLES. stark realization. hahah! the hockey coach, him and mr kunalan were supposed to be competiting to see who can peel the LONGEST apple peel. it was such an easy feat for mr kunalan but coach was erm.. HARD feat. ahah. his just kept breaking off. hahah. both the canoeing tables were just hysterical. it was so funny! his peel just kept breaking off and he started bending lower and LOWER. ahhahaha! xD

and we made a trophy and played the savenger hunt thingy but we got no plastic 10-dollar note, sadly. ahha. wanmei got her socks cut! such a sad beeg hole. haha. the other canoeing table, however, had better luck, with deviana and her 24 inches skirt. hahaha. jiayi's was 21 inches. not bad, not bad. jiayi says mine must be fifteen. ahha. and then the conversation led to mini skirts. ANOTHER STORY.

speeches by dance and NCC heads, clips and the powerpoint presentation! at least we weren't too maluated by the choice of pictures we put in, thank god. haha. then came the FOOD!!! someone in the crowd quoted; if anybody wants to see the hungry ghost festival, then this would be the best place. haha. real true. everybody was really rushing for the buffet. crescentians are really cresentians. xD

TRAINING TMR! GRINS!

oral.

2005-08-24T20:22:00.000-07:00

~~monday; tuesday;~~ WEDNESDAY; ~~thursday; friday; sat & sun~~

do not save your loving speeches
for your friends until they are dead.
do not write them on their tombstones,
rather, speak them now instead.

i am forever scarred. today was chinese ORAL day, and i so know i am going to FAIL. i just sat there and garbled a few words, waiting for her to question me somemore. i think my mind just totally slipped and forgot that it was supposed to think. I CAN'T FACE THAT TEACHER ANYMORE!!! she knows that i am such a shallow pool of chinese water. i can't even read the PASSAGE properly): and i know she knows that i am such a NON-STUDY-ER. i am as good as DEAD):

had training yesterday. WITHOUT JIAYI. felt missing. anyhows. i took a K2 with WANMEI! i am happy(: i think, sort of. things i cannot help. things that i don't know. things that i KNOW, i will do as follows. but i am HAPPY that mei is my partner(: i mean having her in a T2 and all(: at least, i don't feel weird and funny. hehe. and it was kinda depressing, knowing the fact that most of the canoeing members don't have THAT kind of listening ear for me. i am at a loss at how to lead them. even when i speak, it is like speaking to a wall. no matter how loud i am, which is not very. i am such a FAILURE): i need to like, resign. and let somebody better take over. sigh. i should not have been elacted in the first place. those people must have lost their minds to choose me, a dumb insignificant speck of dunno-what in the team.

and FINAL TERM EXAMS is like. only 36 days away. i need to start studying, all those i have ever learnt in this entire year, which is like, A LOT. maybe i'll study on the bus and on the way home from tomorrow onwards after canoeing, cause, it amounts up to alot of time being wasted sitting and staring. YES, i will do that. better get my grades in cause i am such a failure in the team(: at least i know i have something else to lean on. got to work hard!

i know how you are feeling, and maybe, i am feeling the same way too. it had all been a show of shyness, confused and silence. but all that is going to stop, cause i know that that is never going to bring the past back to me. neither am i going to forget who had ruined it all for me. from now, i am going to stop seeking what that can never be found, but instead, concentrate on every single happy moment that i may ever have. i am going to stop hiding my feelings, and also stop trying. but that doesn't mean that i will not look out for you, think of you, care for you. i see you in my mind, everyday. a subconscious permanant thought. all the things you have done for me, are all remembered and cherished, although i don't seem to be. one nice word from you is able to give me a whole day of smiles, a smile or funny thought from you, is able to let me be myself. i just want to know how much you are appreciated and thought of every single day. even if i don't look like i am, i am still thinking. every now and then, we find a special friend, who never lets us down, who understands it all, who reaches out when you fall. you are the bestest friend i have found.

ILOVEYOU.

STUPID photo-taking.

2005-08-22T19:20:00.000-07:00

MONDAY; ~~tuesday; wednesday; thursday; friday; sat & sun~~

what a dumb day. we got reassigned to different seats. cooked up that funny seating arrangement, that ended up with me and fiona in the FRONT row. like. that is so not good. the front row is for people who STUDY. people who listen in class, unlike me and fiona, who talks and talks and talks and make noises during the class. now that we are condamned to sitting in the front row, we can't do things that we want! this is tyranny.

so i survived CHINESE, MATHS & ENGLISH in that seating arrangement. this is the work of gods. haah. and we got back ENGLISH! i got A1! YAYY. i didn't think i would score that high for english. but the teach said that the whole class did relatively well! how nice is that! now i am starting to believe that maybe our class is kinda cool all TOGETHER, but for tests, they don't seem to bother. jeez. nice class.

oh wells. and we got held up for the dumb ole photo-taking again! like. WHY DON'T WE DO IT ON THURSDAY INSTEAD?! when we had to like waste time at school in the HOT sun waiting for the teach to take us?! so she is following us to macritchie on thursday to take us. NO COMMENT.

there's training tomorrow! i WAS feeling excited to go for training, but seeing how all the others are just so tired looking and saying things like they don't really want to go for training tomorrow and all, makes me kinda sad. i really need a good friend, but none of them seem interested in being one for me): oh well. i guess there is always JIAYI! lovelove(: ahah. and besides i really want to take a K2 again. well, unless coach has other plans. I HOPE NOT!

don't you want it too?

can't we have a change. JEEZ.

2005-08-18T22:40:00.000-07:00

~~monday; tuesday; wednesday;~~ THURSDAY; ~~friday; sat & sun~~

had MASS RUN today, and it was a disaster. i don't like it. i don't like it at all): JEEZ. what is wrong with that woman. her words so harsh like stones hitting on my skin. got very upset and she was all. WHY ARE YOU CRYING? YOU SHOULD KNOW THAT TEARS DON'T SOLVE EVERYTHING. like, oh, you don't know. whatever LAH.

i shall do my duty. i don't dislike it. just that i want to do it the way i want to do it. not following some other persons orders still and make me do things that i don't WANT to do. hmph. but then. i would like get scolding again right?! what is the point of this endless loop of leadership. it sorta sucks. but, oh finee. i shall make the best of it(: i don't want to disappoint friends who have complete support in me! YAYY(: i feel better now(:

had dance lessons! like 5 periods, cause the english teach gave up hers. i don't know why. must be because i was not listening in class again. oops. haha. but it was nice. erm. not having english i mean. cause i know i am going to like ZONE out again. when i can DANCE DANCE DANCE in the MPR! i was so hyper and happy(: i didn't know what was doing. haha. and i hurt my feet jumping up and down and doing that thing that those dance people do where you leap in the air and sort of stretch both legs in front and behind you with your arm outstretched or something like that. haah. it was fun, except when the feet hurt. haha.

and the contemporary dance test! it was okay, actually. me and my partner was doing it together. haha. cause of all the counting. i hope it was okay though(: and i hope also that i did not lean too forward, thus, resulting in the revealing of my YOUKNOWWHAT. haah. though i don't have much(X HAHA. and we were videotaped. oh, the humilation. haha. and we also watched previous year's people dance. i guess it is tit for tat. ahah.

we had literature in the AVT. scary place. where the teach can see what is everybody doing. well, i was trying hard not to close my eyes. not that i was tired, but i sort of cried in the morning due to SOME unknown forces and the crying had made my eyes tired. but i did listen and also took down notes! (: well. now i know i won't fail for literature. ahah.

when i was waiting for the chairperson to open the door, bernice told me that ZAKKIIEE was crying too! cause well, she failed her MT paper): i know, the format changed and all): dumb format. didn't know why, but rushed up to class to see her. i saw that she was having science. and ran fast, hoping she was still there, which is most likely, up to her class. entered the toilet, then came back out, then ENTERED again. ahah. cause i saw her hair. ahha. and i thought she would be there! ahah.

patpat(: love you all the same and BERNICE I HOPE YOU ARE LISTENING TO THIS, zakki is a much more worthy FGRIIRELND than ... $2. haha. more than $350 to ME! yes(: and for training. i don't want a change of partners for K2(: i am more than happy with my FORMER one(: and i will make coach understand it(: haha. besides wanmei wants to row with bernice(: YAYY. UNITY OF THE FGRIIRELNDS! ahha.

CHANGEisGOOD!

2005-08-16T21:15:00.000-07:00

~~monday;~~ TUESDAY; ~~wednesday; thursday; friday; sat & sun~~

i changed my blogskin! had a sudden brainwave(: and just HAD to listen to it! so here it is(: the change! and CHANGE is GOOD, okay! haha. well, SOME changes. ahha.

played TENNIS today! during school hours AND after school hours! ms lim decided to go easy on us and allowed us to play games during PE! YAYY. so, yah, i decided to play TENNIS with jiayi and a few other random people. hahah. LAUGHS AT FIONA. oops. fine. and fiona and hidayah. THERE.

it is tiring(: but FUN! and there is training next week! means that i get to row a K2 soon! i can't wait! ahha. :D but first, there is the D&T test tomorrow i haven't studied for and the load of HISTORY questions, THAT music journal i haven't passed up, chinese composition & canoeing powerpoint! rushrushrush! haha. ooh. i got back CHINESE today! i got a 46.5 / 70! equals to 66/100! equals to B3! i thought i was going to fail as they changed the format and everything. :D

end of COMMON TESTS.

2005-08-15T22:55:00.000-07:00

TODAY'S THE DAY!
THE DAY OF ALL DAYS!
actually.
it is the end of common tests.
HAHA.

i know i am typing this a bit late): but, i am doing it(: haha. first thing. comments on the HISTORY PAPER. it was, i should say, UNEXPECTED. ahha. well, cause i did not read on MLG that it would consist of four source-based questions and that we have to learn about reliablity, inference and comparison? YAH. cause i am just so like a RAINFOREST sometimes. LIKE LYNETTE. hahaha.

so i did not expect all the questions to be source-based. oops. oh well, what's over is OVER(: ahah. just that i hope that i don't fail(: please? ahah. i managed to answer all four while some people in my class couldn't find time to answer the last question. i think i would die if i left any question out!

anyway. enuff of all that talk. jeez. it is making me sick. and i got back summary. i got like 12/20?! what kind of an insane mark is that. i am not going to score for english. i KNEW it. D:

CUT!

i said i will not talk about THAT no more(: i watched eiji kikumaru and ooshtari's match with TERRY GRIFFY & TOM GRIFFY today! haha. it was URM enriching. haahha. and i think MR BAKER is kinda MENTAL. to think he would ask them to lose a match like that. JEEZ. i am talking about TENNIS here! the second love of my life(: ahha. first's CANOEING. yayy. ahah. going to jiayi's house to play tomorrow! with her and amanda. i can't wait!!! ahhaha. i know i am desperate(:

don't ever doubt my friendship?

HISTORY. really.

2005-08-14T22:04:00.000-07:00

FALL OF THE IMPREGNABLE FORTRESS :

The British had made military preparations in Singapore, like building a naval base in the north facing the Johor strait. Military airfields were also built in Tengah and Sembawang. Guns were set up at in certain places to defend Singapore and underground bunkers were also built in several places in Singapore like Fort Canning, Labrador and Sembawang. The British also thought that the jungles of Malaya also acted as a na-

THE FALL OF SINGAPORE :

):

HAHA.

2005-08-13T23:25:00.000-07:00

hello.

there is still HISTORY common test on monday and here i am, typing away FURIOUSLY at my blog(: hahaha. well, we have to take a break sometime! (x well. that applies to people who study REAL hard. ahahah. *hint hint*

i went to paddleculture today(: for the sec1s 2-star course. and NOR was their instructor! we had a FUNFUN theory lesson. well. zakkiiee and me sort of helped out. HAHA. it was funny seeing the expressions on NOR'S face. HAHAHA. and about the PARTS OF THE PADDLE!

NOR: so what is the front part of the blade called?
ZAKK & SEC1: power-face.
NOR: -.-" PEOPLE IN SKIRTS AND JEANS CANNOT ANSWER!!!
NOR: so what is the OTHER SIDE OF THE PADDLE called?
SHOEE: [soft voice] back-face.
NOR: I HEARD THE ANSWER SOMEWHERE HERE?
SHOEE: YES! BACK-FACE!!!
NOR: -.-" !!! YOU ARE NOT A SEC1!!!

oh. it was so funny. ahhaha. but then we went outside. haha. don't want to affect the theory lesson no more. ahha. helped miss lim mark common test papers! well, zakkiee and mei only lah. ahah. i was studying HISTORY! so guai(: AHAHA.

but then. the water was SO tempting that we went down into it anyway(: ahha. SWAM! so fun(: and tried sitting on NOR'S boat. and we found out that MEI has a WOBBLY butt. aaahah. (x

we saw.. PEOPLE. we recognize. hahaah. well. zakkiee knows what i mean. xD

and nor tried throwing me down into the water again. but i was already CHANGED and DRY, so all she did was threaten me. ahha. but she still put me on the floor anyway(: ahha. that guy who was doing the stunts in the purple boat was giving nor funny looks. HAHA. oh gosh(:

HISTORY!!!

NATIONAL DAY!

2005-08-09T18:20:00.000-07:00

HAPPY
NATIONAL
DAY!

glops.

2005-08-08T22:16:00.000-07:00

GLOPS.

reply to jiayi's TAG.
finefine, i am being so JEALOUS): but really. i shouldn't. and you were not supposed to read that post. but i guess, since i posted it up already anyway, you have the rights to do so): oops. DON'T TELL AMANDA! or else i would feel so guilty to break up the NICENICE friendship you have with her(: ahah. SORRY LAH. i was just being my usual JEALOUS self(: ahahha. really. SORRY): but really felt like playing tennis, cause you know how i am after watching POT. and so, felt annoyed. aahaha. REALLY REALLY GOMENASAI!

who cares in this family anyway. jeez. as i said, i was supposed to STUDY FOR COMMON TESTS, but here i am, typing away at my blogg AGAIN): i really need to handle my time better. or else i am going to FAIL and maybe get into.. combine sciences? SHOOTS.

but. SHE is getting on my nerves at home here. and is totally distracting me. SHE is SO contridicting, okay. i can't stand it, but stand it anyway. like, i am being to tolerating to HER?! i can't imagine why. maybe it is to protect my sanity. seeing as i am as sane to even REASON with someone like HER who doesn't care about reasoning anyway. I CAN'T STAND IT NO MORE.

I AM HER SISTER, SO I SHOULD KNOW WHAT IS WITH HER AND NOT. AND WHATEVER SHE IS SAYING RIGHT NOW IS LIKE. SO WRONG. I HATE IT. WHY IS EVERYTHING LIKE THIS.

but no, i am NOT going to let her get to me(: i am being so positive about it(: i WILL NOT let her get to ME! NEVERNEVERNEVER. i am a SANE kid. and will believe in whatever i want to believe in and NOT IN HER.

-rolls eyes.
i need a new will.

CANOEING LEADERS CAMP.

2005-08-07T21:52:00.000-07:00

CANOEING LEADERS' CAMP.

nice name, huh? hahha. maybe it IS a leaders' camp, but, who knows? it was fun, all the same(: it is supposed to be FAREWELL party. heex. we camped at Changi Aloha Resort! the place was BEEG. and really. it was just right for a team of our size. i wonder what we are going to stay-

PLEASE EXCUSE THIS POST.
I HAVE JUST FINISHED TYPING THE ENTRIES FOR THE CRESCENT COURIER AND YEARBOOK AND IS FEELING A LITTLE BIT PUKE-Y. HAHA.
WILL UPDATE MAYBE. AFTER COMMON TESTS? HAHAHA.

faints-

2005-08-03T19:04:00.000-07:00

i was supposed to put a quote here. i think i forgot what i wanted it to be. :D

i went to jiayi's house to play tennis today! it was, i should say, unproductive. HAHHAH. i brought FIONA along. i think it was all because of her presence. hahha. but, i think she also livened up things. oh wells. sometimes, FIONA just leaves me speechless.

i didn't bring my own racket. i used jiayi's ADULT one. it was okay, i guess. wasn't as heavy as last time i held it. MEANS I HAVE GROWN STRONGER. hhaha. since we had three people, we had a MATCH with a REFEREE! that was fiona. ahhaha. since jiayi and i got much more experience than her. jiayi and i kept getting STUCK at DEUCES okay! shows that our standard of tennis so SAME. well, at least, i think so. it was a CHORE just getting around the dumb DEUCES. even FIONA got tired of all the DEUCES. ahah. well, i don't blame her.

my match with jiayi ended with 5-4. jiayi leading. cause then, fiona got tired of being the umpire and wanted to play with me, so jiayi became the umpire. ahahah. i should say playing with FIONA is quite interesting. for someone who does not have a OUNCE of tennis experience. she learnt how to serve rather quickly, but all of them are too low and kept hitting the net. OH WELLS. ahahah. faluts. she got so many of them. we kept switching players until the match ended with 6-1. haha. fiona only won one game. AND THAT WAS BECAUSE SHE KEPT HITTING SO LOW TO THE GROUND THAT WHEN WE GOT THERE, THE BALL LOST ALL OF ITS KINETIC ENERGY AND IS JUST ROLLING ALONG THE FLOOR. i mean?! and jiayi was all : THAT'S NICE, GETTING POINTS BY DESPICABLE MEANS. ahhahaha.

but it was still nice. i am SO GOING to find out if the chalet that we are going to have any place that we can play tennis(: if there is, i shall inform EVERYBODY and make them all bring their tennis rackets and PLAY TOGETHER! YAYY! then we can all learn from each other(: how nice is THAT!

and i really need lessons. REALLY.

can't wait!

FIONA.

2005-08-02T19:57:00.000-07:00

GUESS WHAT?!

fiona made me got called out by the HISTORY teacher to stand. STAND. in CLASS. that was the FIRST time i actually was called to do something like that! i MEAN?!

fine. so i am fidgeting a TAD too much and was not paying attention to whatever ANCIENT thing she was talking about in class. [this coming from someone who likes, LOVE, history even] i can't believe i wrote that. anyways. i was sort of conversing with FIONA on paper about stuffs and then i think she saw, but did not say anything about it(: ahhaha. but then when i started like, making TOO loud a noise, she made me stand up. i was so shocked, i stood up straight away and glared at fiona that made her SAY SORRY TO ME. ahhah. the all intimidating ONE!

so that was how i got called to stand up in class. the first time somemore! i can't stand the fact that i have, actually evolved from a GUAI kid to someone who gets called to STAND UP in class): i need to watch myself. and FIONA too. if you are reading this, i hope you will feel duly sad and sorry for your POOR sitting partner here. [muahahaha.]

and then when the lesson was over, she MADE me go up to her and listen to her ranting on about how IMPORTANT IT WAS TO LISTEN IN CLASS. like. she repeats everything she taught the last lesson?! what does she expect me to DO?! i am a kid with fibers of activiness. i can't blame myself): oh. but i do need to watch myself from now on. i can't afford her to HATE me or else i would NEVER pass my beloved subject): swells.

over with that! fine. admit i was in the wrong and all): but. YES. i am REPENTING. from today onwards that is. i also didn't get to play tennis! nobody wanted to PLAY WITH ME): and there was also no vacant location and rackets and balls. but i really really did feel like playing there and then and got into a rotten mood. CAUSE JIAYI IS NEVER FREE WHEN I NEED HER. SHE IS ALWAYS WITH AMANDA. AMANDA THIS, AMANDA THAT. AMANDA EVERYTHING. jeez. everytime, okay! blinks really hard. but will not tell her anything or even feel like committing murder but be the nice little kid i always has been(: NO HARD FEELINGS, AMANDA. if you ever see this.

SO, i am going to play with JIAYI tomorrow! YAYY. finally(: at her house. along with sitting PARTNER in tow. shall make her pick up all the balls that jiayi and i would ever drop! which is, in my opinion, ALOT. ahhaha. oh wells(: CAN'T WAIT! just less than 24 hours(:

and i also cannot wait to go to BERNICE'S HOUSE to BAKE BROWNIES! cool xiaz! YAYY. this thursday(: CAN'T WAIT TOO!

sometimes, you just got to know when to let go.

sports forum/STUFFS

2005-08-01T21:20:00.000-07:00

SPORTS FORUM.

it was a blast. blastingly BORING. and i mean boring. it was full of TALKING. and talking only. i mean?! talking may be interesting to us, but BORING talk is not. they are totally depriving us from AIR. for how many insane hours?! i am never attending something like THAT again. ever. at least bernice had the insight to miss it and drag wanmei into it. haha. was totally irritating her when it haven't started.

we listened. ACTUALLY LISTENED to some former Olympic Medallist talk about his swimming days. and a couple of stuffs i don't really remember. haha. yesyes, i know being a Olympic Medallist is a great deal, but then, we are just TEENS and i don't think somewhere along the crowd there is someone who is so SOMETHING prodigy to even go and participate in such a GLORIOUS event. really. and i didn't even understand what he was blabbering on about. some program and some road? oh wells. hahaha.

[OH WELLS - quoted from the famous DONAL DUCK aka SITI(:]

but i like the FOOD afterwards. though i tasted a tad stale. OH WELLS. but we tried to try everything? from the mee to the brownies. i found out on that day i couldn't eat a brownie properly. i tried to pierce it with a fork, only to find out that it would crumble and break into smaller pieces. hahaha. then it started raining. then i started worrying about the tennis session i have later on, as if it is going to continue raining like it was then, most probably we would not have it! and i am telling you, that HCI has like a wall-to-court tennis court! totally amazing. we don't even have space that is as impressive as theirs): sadly. and thus, crescent cannot cater to tennis deprived people like me): I WANNA BE COME A BOY! scratch that. i want to become a clever boy. ahha. so that i would be able to attend HCI. ahahah.

and siti is funny. she shall be my new irritating/laughing partner. it was raining. and she offered to lend mrs heng her NEW umbrella. which i don't think she has ever used it before and well. it really did look new. ahhaah. so mrs heng went out into the rain to see if the bus was parked outside. she came back soon after and sent siti out cause the rain was really pouring and she did not want to get too wet. WHY. i think i know. but. well. haha. so she sent siti out. and siti came back, a few seconds later, WET FROM WAIST DOWN. that's how bad it was. a few SECONDS only, okay! and she was wet and dripping. hahaha. was such a sight.

so the bus came. i sat with her inside the SMALL bus and started laughing. cause siti was being TOO funny. and she didn't get why was i laughing. hahha. it was my SPECIAL. the one that was extra loud and long. hahah. i think mrs heng thought i was CRAZY. hahha. i even mistook HOLLAND for KALLANG. that was the extent of my craziness. haha. maybe it wasn't all a fun day, but i was a fun day all the same(:

as for school? i don't even want to go there.

school?

2005-07-28T20:17:00.000-07:00

* ahem

been a longlone time since i updated(: and i think alot has happened in my entire absence from the internet world. okayy. i can't believe i wrote that. anyhows. LYNETTE was the one who was asking me to express myself onto this blog to the WHOLE WORLD and so here i am, doing just THAT! ahha.

school was FINE. as always. and i always manage to finish my assignments on time! i can't see why some of my canoeing members are always failing to do so. but that is out of point. that means, that i haven't gotten into trouble so far(: YAYY.

there is no training! after school life is SO boring): there's no where to go after school, and thus, resorted to staying back and waiting for my sister to go home together, cause it is BORING to go back home alone): haha.

i swear ms ang doesn't know what training is to US okay. cause all she ever does if she is present is just supervise us): that's not really fun): but when you are in the water(: GOSH. i miss training):

but onee thing! chalet is coming! and mr josef is SO enthu about it. haha. i was all. YOU ARE GOING?! ahahah. well, no offence(: and he was all. 5 AUG! 5 AUG! figures. he needs somewhere to go too. hahaha.

just talked to lynette.
she said i would always be a KID.
i didn't answer, cause she was going off, already.
but. SQUARES!
i came up with that when i was following zakkiiee and wanmei to post their colours awards forms. i was like, why are ... always DOTS? i want it to be SQUARES! ahhaah. okay. that was lame.

* sorry if this post is too sacastic in content.
* the type-r was suffering from laughing fits.

NATIONALS NATIONALS!

2005-07-22T18:23:00.000-07:00

heyhey!

day 3 of Nationals today. it was, i should say. enriching. haha. cause, i have discovered THAT I AM SO UGLY! ahahah. lynette is going to frown at me. ah. but really): no more self-esteem. ahah.

people who qualified from yesterday's heats are zakki, jane, tabi, siti, bernice, heidy, wanmei and me(: so today was finals. OH, FEEL THE PRESSURE! we left school at 7.30am. and reached 15 minutes later. the place was crowded. and wanmei's and my race was first. the SECOND event in the entire day's races! really scary. i was trying not to feel so nervous. so i tried to focus on other things like how to paddle straight and stuffs like that. i guess all that helped?

warmed-up and then when they announced for us to report, we did and went into the water. tried not to panic. and sort of encouraged wanmei. ahha. was between two TMS boats. one that we beat yesterday and one that was in the other heat. we started quite fast, i should say. was leading in the first part. but then, i think the TMS boat on our right, the one in the other heat started fighting us for the lead. but we stuck quite close to them. as in was almost the same but they were a bit faster. and ahead. felt SO tired, okay! was really sprinting for the entire race set. and at 250m, my arms were so numb that it was my brain that forced it to move at the constant speed it was at. and so it was like this that we got third. we were so CLOSE TO GETTING FIRST/SECOND, OKAY! wanmei got so upset): and started crying. patpat. there's always NEXT year! but really.

when we finished the race set, was so tired that i couldn't move. anything. really. i just sat there and panted. and the hands were trembling): we didn't even go to the landing area. we just sort of drifted. aahha. didn't have strength to stand up, jane had to pull me out. haha. IT WAS THAT TIRING.

so wanmei and i got 3rd. MEDALMEDAL! zakkieee(: got 3rd. MEDALMEDAL! heidy and bernice got 2nd! MEDALMEDAL! cool yeahs! and for the TEAM awards. crescent got 2nd RUNNER-UP! MEDALMEDAL! and we get to make a speech on monday. zakkiee and i. we tried to protest): but.

_________

after nationals. i think everyone was in such a MOOD. maybe nationals were not that satisfying? ah, well. so lynette was disappointed. cause she wanted to go out and celebrate. but she only had ME. haha. so she was a bit sad): but cheered up in the end, anyhow(: we went tiong instead and ate KFC. drank bubble tea; made funny faces. ahah. and i told lynette THAT I LOOKED UGLY): she laughed. haha. then dragged her to chamelon and bought earrings! well, i thought it would make her feel better. we bought TWO sets and exchanged them. we are going to wear it to the chalet! cool xiax. and both are dangly ones. aha. i don't wear them even, but i think they are nice anyhow(:

YAYYE!
winners in our hearts(:

NATIONALS!

2005-07-21T19:08:00.000-07:00

nationalsnationals!

today was NATIONALS! the place was really crowded. well, so many schools and all. but i guess it was okay. the EXCITEMENT was overpowering. so much until i got so NERVOUS and started becoming HYSTERICAL. ahha. you'd think people would think i am SOT. but, haven't i always been. ah.

anyhows. NATIONALS! saw Melissa(: TOEEY(: haha. well, she told me that she would be there to watch me and wanmei race(: and she didn't break her promise(: yayye. gave me a HUG before i went down! so nice xiaz. and LYNETTE too(:

so we did focused. haha. was feeling really nervous and scared. but then, i thought that being all that wasn't going to help me anyhows. so i calmed myself down and started visualizing(; it helped, plenty. really. wanmei and me went really straight! well, not really but not THAT much either(: and we were leading from the 500m onwards. like lynette said. when you are leading, you get the feeling that you don't want to be overtaken(: so we did not allow anybody to overtake us! and we ended 1ST! with a timing of 4.13 minutes!

when wanmei and i heard the timing, we had the same reaction. jumping up and down and screaming at the top of our lungs. haha. was SO happy! ah. 4.13 minutes! i can't stand it. from the first time we ever raced and practiced for our 750m, we got 4.56 minutes. and then it slowly gradually lessened(: i think me and wanmei can improve SO MUCH MORE! ah! that's like 43 seconds! that GREAT LEAP! ah. i am turning hysterical again.

jiayi and amanda and narmatha and pei zheng, however, did not qualify): sadly. we were the only ones that qualified in the morning. in the afternoon, HOWEVER. everybody qualified! all the 500m rowers! so proud of them(: so they and wanmei and i would be racing tomorrow too. and that would determine the outcome. sounds scary, xiaz.

DO NOT BE CONTENTED WITH THE RESULTS YOU HAVE NOW! AIM HIGHER AND TRY TO REACH THE TOP!

i'd be your guardian angel.

orgh. the competitor's names.

2005-07-19T20:31:00.000-07:00

THE COMPETITORS' NAMES ARE OUT! suddenly i feel like throwing up.

anyhows. we would try our best(: yayye. and ms lim wants to help us with the canoeing cap! cool xiaz(: ahha. she told me during PE today, cause we are supposed to run 2.4 today but with the competitions and all, ms ang has exempted us. can't say i am sad, can't say i am happy either. ah. everybody did so well! sudden onset of pressure. ooh. the fastest was 12.08 minutes. by puisheen. haha. jiayi! aim for 12.07 and below, yeahs!

and can we just wear our canoeing shirt to school on thursday?

training. the last one before COMPETITIONS!

2005-07-18T20:52:00.000-07:00

there was training today!

the last one before the National Canoeing Championships(: cool xiaz. i mean, who has competed in a canoeing competition before?! well, except for all those OTHER schools. haha. ain't i lucky(: i lovelove my life. haha. if i have one even. ah, random. random.

had school before training. like WAYY boring): sadly, they made us take 3 periods of ENGLISH. like, provide me a pillow please? haha. but today's english was okay, i guess. we discussed festivals! in the mucic room and we were let off early(: like 20 minutes early(: that's why i had time to play with the tennis ball i brought to school in class with jiayi and hidayah. ah. i just found out the the racket is a very good weapon(: against flying balls. haha.

so we had training after school. thank god(: the only thing that keeps me going. ahh. what am i going to do when training ends?! like after Nationals, then we have a LONGLONG period of time without training): i think i might have to bring a pillow to class then. ahha. but there is something to look forward to(: the CANOEING CHALET! haha. ZAKKIIEE would be attending too(: yayyes. seeing that she NEVERS attend anything(: if her parents are not going to allow, i am going over to whereever she is staying and plead with them. haha. really.

today's training; wanmei thinks i am against her. haha. i was really teasing and making lame jokes trying to make her laugh, but all she gives me is her STARE! ahaha. scary xiaz. but that doesn't stop me! haha. nothing much does. except for certain stuffs): ah. but she knows it is not on purpose(: and things are all happening at once. ah. i am glad i am informed? (;

coach was there. TAKING PICTURES. of us. like; he needs a NEW hobby. haha. well, besides being a coach(: that is. anyhows, he was there also training BGSS and some other JC? yeah. so all we did was technical paddling(: it wasn't that bad, i thought. but a bit boring though. just paddling and turning and paddling and turning again and again. but all in all, i thought it was okay. just a tad boring(: CAN'T WAIT FOR COMPETITIONS!!

oh. and something funny happened today. ahha. in the bus. lynette was bad-mooding and me and wanmei, who were also taking 132 home were present. i always take 132 home with lynette, but this time, i was so freaked out by her bad-aura, that i didn't even dare to go close): ah. so we started SMSing her. haha. i started by consoling her. and then explaining. saying that i had brought lollipops(: and then she was like. lollipops don't talk and care... and i was BUT, the person who brought it talks and cares.. then after a while of SMSing. she was all FRIENDS? the i was all LOLLIPOP? hahha. we were trying to make sure that each other didn't see that we were laughing. to ourselves. ahha. it was so funny! then she sent me: you might want to move to the seat on your left. hha. then we looked at each other and started laughing. OMG. haha. it was so funny and the bus people muct have thought we were nuts. haha. (x

i didn't lose my mind. i sold it on ebay.

training! 4.22minutes!!!

2005-07-15T20:20:00.000-07:00

(:

had training today(: after the 12am release from school. went to mobile first to eat, since it was already late. and we were supposed to reach MacRitchie soon. coach didn't let us run. thankgod. i didn't think that i was very in the running-mood. and the time and sky there at MacRitchie looked like it was only 10 in the morning. it was very, fresh? ah.

took a T2 with wanmei! yesterday i took a T1 and i do not want to repeat THAT! hahaa. it was so boring. there was nobody to talk to): like, because jiayi and amanda kept talking to each other and leaving me out): and peizheng had narmatha): so, i was aLONE. ah, how i missed you yesterday, mei! but luckily your test is finished(: and you came today(: heex.

had 2km of warm-up first and then one race set. ours was 750m. it felt slow): but it was fast! haha. contridicting. me and wanmei clocked a timing of 4.22 minutes! fast right! haha. peizheng and narmatha was 4.38 minutes. finally they passed the 4.40 minutes they've been clocking so far. haha. because both of them had full bladders and wanted to finish the race as soon as possible. haha. sho funnyx.

when coach announced the results; he ALWAYS leave wanmei and my timing to the last one, make us feel so scared; like we have done BADLY): haha. anyhow, when he announced it, me and wanmei screamed like the loudest we could and start high-fiving and hugging each other. haha. i was really shocked lah. the est we have done so far, was 4.31 minutes. and that giant leap of 9 seconds was really ALOT, okay(: ah, i lovelovelovelove this. haha.

then did long distance paddling. race sets of 250m for 5 times. me and wanmei won tabby and siti for all(: nicenice. haha. unless they were slacking. haha. once, i think they entered at the same time we did. but; after that(: haha. ah. BGSS was there today. was wondering about their training times. hmm. and their teacher/coach? was i think, very fierce. he was shouting at the T2 people like, so loudly until i could see the vein at his neck poking out. arg. i am glad we have coach as our coach(: haha.

suffered a lot of cuts today): i got one deep one from scraping the combing of the boat. it's a slash down one of my fingers): and it stings. the skin goes white when i put too much water on it, though. haha. and i got a painful and black-ish one from some SJI person who scraped the same hand that i had the finger cut with a paddle, leaving behind a really long and painful black gash): at first i though the back colour was from the paddle, but now, i realise that it was not. the skin over the wound had tuned into that colour! like. ?!. ah. must take care of myself now(:

zakkiiee was still sick when she came to school today. i touched her forehead in the morning and it was warm. haha. she came to find me in class when i was copying science homework. haha. her purple book is still under my table(: shall return her someday. like monday? and in the meantime, get well soon!

self-motivation is half the battle won!

training(;

2005-07-13T20:38:00.000-07:00

had training yesterday(:

i forgot to blog about it cause the thing i did when i got home was to bathe, and SLEEP. i even skipped dinner. talk about ASTOUNDING! hahahha. anyhows. when i woke up at around 11, i was feeling hungry and my mom had already cleared away the dinner table): she wouldn't even let me drink something with glucose like sprite. sighs. she made me drink MILK instead. well, not that i hate milk(: hahahaha.

anyhows. blog about training! NATIONALS are coming! scaredscared. in T2 event with wanmei(: 750m. STRAIGHT FINALS. i think i like it with heats better. heex. seems like 750m ain't any interest to many schools. ): and so it is straight finals. on friday. in the morning. argh. am i suppose to be scared like this?

took a T2 with wanmei yesterday. was not feeling dizzy anymore, thank goodness. we had warm-up, then 750m race, then 2 500m races and 3 250m races. it was i should say. desperate. the 750m one was okay. i don't think there was anything wrong with it. and then the 500m one was erm. a race that made me desperate.

cause me and wanmei kept going ziggy-zaggy. and wanmei was worring about it; cause she is afraid that we might be like that too, in the finals. i was trying to calm her down, by saying all kinds of logical things. but i don't think she has gotten over it yet. so, she is going for counciling. with me(: haha. i hope, i can make her change her mind! or else, it would be BAD. all we need to do is beat 2 boats! 2 boats!

oh, funny parts. i think i was going insane. cause zakkiiee and wanmei are taking our lifevests, i decided to take the paddles. i took 3 of our paddles and headed for zakk's boat first. haha. after slotting it in, i turned around and said something that sounded like HOHOHO. only then did i realise that zakkiiee was over there and she witnessed the whole thing, and started laughing. hahahhaha. after she started laughing, i found that, it was in fact, a bit amusing too. then i started laughing. and i couldn't stop. hahahha. coach was looking at me like i did something murderous. haha. i was toning down already, but then zakk demo-ed it to wanmei and whoever who was looking, and said that i thought i was santa claus. THAT started me off again. hahah. well, it was funny. x'D
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we had PE today(: and since we already ran YESTERDAY; a 2.4km one, ms lim allowed us to try the 5 items. but half of the 5 items were occupied and so we were broken into two different groups, doing inclined and sit-&-reach. the sit-&-reach was really SHIBAI. hahah. i only qualified for a C. reaching up till 35?! and coach says i have long arms. i'd say. and the inclined(: jiayi did 35. i counted, cause i sneaked away from my group and went to look at hers. hahah. then when we switched, jiayi wanted me to do the inclined too; i think she wanted to know if she can beat me? yeahs. so i did(: and i also did 35! cool xiaz(: samesame. ah, being so fit is like such a nice feeling(: i won;t ever regret that i joined canoeing(: loveLOVElove.

the satisfaction of the hard training; is winning.

training. sadsad training.

2005-07-09T21:17:00.000-07:00

it is a saturday. and there was training!

haha. i know. wanmei was there earlier than me. not surprising, but then, zakkiiee was there too. i was surprised. haha. finefine. anyhows, coach made us run first. he said it was short. i guess, that it was. was able to finish 2 seconds after jiayi(: haha. 6.39 minutes. four rounds. i think it is good? heex.

anyhow, we STILL did water training like we always(: took a T2 with wanmei(: but before that, i was suffering from like. dizzy-ness. and i couldn't breath properly. like my heart was skipping beats. i told that to wanmei when i was carrying boat with her to the grass patch. i think i ran too fast. heex. if there is such a thing. haha. and so wanmei told coach and coach asked me to take a seat. i was still standing next to the plant when he said that, cause wanmei said that if i felt dizzy, then i should sit next to something that gives out generous amounts of oxygen. haha. there was only plants who do that! yeah.

i still didn't feel too well, but i think i was okay, at least, to go down and paddle(: at least, not to deprive wanmei of ANOTHER training. haa. ah, we did 2km of warm-up and then went to coach where he was standing on the grass. he asked me the DEMENTED question. are you okay? haha. so i said yes(: and so he didn't really ask anything else after that, so we did one race set. wanmei and i felt like we didn't do too well. but our timing was still at least, 4.35 minutes. i guess, it wasn't that bad(: i hope. haha.

then we went back to coach. zakkiiee and wanmei started debating on whether coach would allow them to go up for water. i decided to cut it short, so i raised my hand and said, " would appreciate water!" and being someone who felt unwell, coach didn't give too much hesitation(: haha. by doing that, the whole team got water! (x

and and! wanmei and i helped a ACJC person. in a K1. with a HIGH-SEAT. that explains why he keeps capsizing. haha. the first time, there weren't any people when he fell in. haha. so, mei and i decided to go and help(: ain't we kind. haha. so we did help. then after a well, another one capsized. right next to the one we were helping. jiayi and co. swarmed him. haha. but he got rescued by their school's K2. ahha.

so we turned around. and to our surprise, we saw that the guy we help earlier had capsized yet again. ahah. mei and i rushed there to help him again. we found it rather amusing. for him to do such things. hahaah. after putting him back on the boat, i was about to suggest if maybe he should practice on shallower waters, to my surprise, he capsized again, right next to us. haha. he uttered a swear word before he fell in and i am very not obliged to say it here in my blog. haha. so we help him again! then after he was in his boat, i was about to say something, then he fell in again. i swear, it was so funny! i mean, i was laughing at the actions, not at HIM. i am not mean(: haha. but really. in the end, his friend, who got rescued by the K2, told us not to bother anymore. haha, so we left in hysterics. X'D

then we were supposed to do 2 more times of our race sets. then bring our boats up and that's it for the day. we did one. and that's all we did. plus 250m as warm-down. cause wanmei's and me backs started aching, and it was so painful, that when wanmei asked me to do harder strokes, i gasped out to her that i couldn't, cause i was also suffering from the same fate as her): ah! i really need to take care of my back! for the Nationals! i need to!!!! coach noticed. who wouldn't, as the two T1s, amanda and jiayi, beat us. which almost never happens. so he asked the DEMENTED question again. are you okay? to which i answered, i don't think so. ha. so he made us do the 250m and back. wanmei' back is too sore, i thought, to be able to paddle another one more of our race set, so we went up.

we put the boat down and went to get something to drink from the mass of water bottles. when i heard something; some guy was talking; he said that crescent reminded him of something, but i couldn't catch it, cause then i was then staring intently at him, to which he reacted by lowering his voice. haha. i don't look very fierce, do i?! haha. ah, well.

and nor was there! she recognizes me(: that's nice. haha. for somebody to have carried me and dumped me into the waters of the paddle-culture pool. haha. ah, but i didn't really talk to her, but i did acknowledge her(: i waved. with two fingers, cause i was busy helping wanmei hold her paddle. haha. but at least, she recognizes me(: yayye. haha. and i guess, zakkiee was rather happy to see her too. anyhow, who wouldn't?

and this is for lynette. oops. i mean, i don't think i want to write it here(: i shall write it in a letter(: where it can only be seen by you and yourself only(: haha. but, seriously(:

THERE IS SOMETHING WRONG WITH THE SHOUTBOX! IT IS NOT GOING TO KICK ME OUT LIKE TAG-BOARD DID, RIGHT, RIGHT?

training. the ONE realization.

2005-07-07T20:44:00.000-07:00

training;training

there was training today. i love training(: but had oral before that. it was scary. but i am glad it is over. for now. hhaa. it was english oral. there was this really really express passage. then there was this really really hard to explain picture. then was the really really hard to think conversation. i think i am going to fail it. heex. the teacher asked me to stop before i could finish the picture discription. i think i must look funny, rattling off like that. haah.

then was training. reached there at like 4.30? so late. went with jiayi and sijing. met sijing at the bus-stop. she could have taken the 132 that was there, but she waited for us to cross the road first. nice xiaz. the damnit traffic light is like an ETERNITY. what is so wrong with it? we missed the bus because of it. and the bus-driver wouldn't wait. people nowadays are so kind.

took a T2. haha. it was okay, i guess. and i figured out the wanmei's right is stronger than her left, that was why we were always headed towards the left. heex. it is so painful and tiring just to steer us back on course again. but we still did it(: like we always did. hhaah.

lynette had some stomach-ache? it was really painful. she was crying so badly. and and! i forgot to mention. wanmei and i put the paddles into the boat before carrying it up and when we did, the paddles both fell into the water. coach called us both CHAMPIONS. hahahaah. so sorry, coach. next time we won't do it again): yesyes. it was funny, but i couldn't laugh when i saw lynette in such pain)': ah.

and i saw melissa today(: at MacRitchie! she was training. CJC canoeing(: that's my melissa(: haha. well, it was a surprise(: LOVELOVE.

external happiness; internal hell.

IFNOTHINGWORKS

2005-07-06T20:53:00.000-07:00

wednesday was today.
thursday is tomorrow(:

trainingtraining.
i think that's my only source of joy.
RIGHT NOW.

but, before that, there's english oral. nobody in my house wants to listen about it, so am blogging. i swear, i am very INVISIBLE in the entire family. i think i have very strong will. to even withstand THAT. and school stuffs. people are not making my life easy)': ah. but it is okay, i guess. i am getting used to it already. sigh.

nationals are coming! 13 more days): feeling scared already. T2 with wanmei. she is such a mysterious person(x haha. but she is a goodgood partner(: i am LUCKY to even have someone like that(: but sometimes. hai. i will take it. like a strong person that i believe that i am. i will. DO IT!

so if i can't have something THAT I REALLY REALLY WANT. i will settle on something else. i think i am very understanding(: haha. but really. beebeebop. so shall change my goals(: to something else much more achieve-able now. like training up myself(: so that i am strong enough. jiayi seems to be slacking now. hmm. that's something i got to ask her about. she's not one to be so weak-hearted too(: anyhows, shall try my best in everything i do now(: i want to be able to ACHIEVE.

crescent can do it.
no doubt about it.
the team rocks(:

training(:

2005-07-05T20:23:00.000-07:00

heehee.

today's training was, well, enriching. haha. i guess i was a bit down. cause of. erm. things YOU don't know. unless you are... but, you are NOT. hahahahaha. yesyes, i was down, but that didn't affect my performance, though(: hhaa. ah, we had a 750m race first. then 4km of distance paddling(: well. it was all good. haha.

for the 750m race, we started. together with some SJI T2 boat. there we were, together in the same SMALL lane, trying to GET in front of each other. but did they let us? NOOOOO. instead they left us in their backwash. i mean?! can't they WAIT. okay, so it was a race. haha. ah, but they could have let us gone first. and started LATER.

we suffered in their backwash): it was rough. yeah. it was. very. you know how boys paddle. jeez. and we were concerned if we were going to cut or hit them, however, they weren't the least bothered. rolls eyes. heex. so wanmei and i were very very VERY not happy. or at least, i think so. haha. so we made a point of racing right behind them, making sure that the distance doesn't LESSEN. and coach saw it all): haha.

he was like. 750 timing: wanmei and shuyun: 4.31 minutes(: then he added. they were chasing the boys. like we could let them win us. heex. no way! YADA! haha. but i am very very VERY happy with the timing(: we improved(: by 4 seconds(: and that is a GREAT improvement, okayys(: hee. LOVELOVE.

sometimes, you could let me know what you are thinking of. i can't mend the broken hole if i have nothing to do it with. can't you give me another chance? i have tried my very best, to close up that gap, that hole, with everything i have, and i don't want to see it ripped apart again. it was difficult, so difficult. won't you understand?

i give up.

2005-07-03T13:01:00.000-07:00

i give up on my father.

really. he is SUCH a man. i can't believe him. HE ACTUALLY LIED TO ME! lied, no doubt. sighs. he actually got the racket from his FRIEND, who, according to him, have no use for a racket anymore. I MEAN?! he could have told me. and i WOULD have taken the news calmly. BUT NOOO. he lied.

he is SUCH a MAN.

since he wants to learn with me, he expects me to use the racket that his friend gave him and HE WOULD BUY A NEW ONE HIMSELF. he is my father. i can't stand him. HEEX. i want to put a hex on him. haha. anyhows, i still think my father LOVES me more than my mother.

he brought us to FUNAN yesterday. to get my sister some PALMTOP? ah. and a thumbdrive. go figure. but he is still nice LARH. haha. we didn't get the palmtop, however, cause it was so expensive. but he did get her a thumbdrive. that costs about HALF of mine. i swear, the school was tricking us. sighs. there, i also saw so many nicenice MP3s!!!

i know what i want for christmas(: hahaha.

mrjosef's wedding(:

2005-07-02T20:29:00.000-07:00

yeeha(:

mrjosef was WED today. hhaa. the wedding was well, nice, for a church wedding. that church wedding was the first for me(; never been in a church before. well, because that is not my religion. haha. obviousobvious. hee.

the experience was, well. i should say, enriching. haha. no wonder church-ists got strong legs. cause they hafta stand and sit and stand and sit and stand and sit and stand and sit again. hahaa. was rather annoyed by it. but, it was a wedding afterall, so i kept quiet(: PEOPLE NEED TO BE PROUD OF ME. hahaha.

i think we had a whole mass. i liked the part where mrjosef and his bride could say stuffs. like. YES, I WILL. YES, I DO. very KEWL. hahaa. and the ring exchange part. i really need to grow taller. cause i didn't really see really well, as there are alot of people in front of me that are WAY taller): but i could get it, cause i was looking at the overhead televison. it was a PLASMA. those church people are really rich. hee. and there was aircon in it(:

after the ceremony, we had a tea reception. the room was small, i should say. and mrjosef invited like THE WHOLE SCHOOL. well, not the whole, but the whole. ahha. it was alot of people, plus some graduated ones. like WANHUI(: and CALISTA(: and WENDY(: and ADEL(: and NICOLE(: and some others(: ahha. it was nice, seeing them again.

the food was okay, i guess. there was spagetti, chocolate eclairs, potato balls, something that looks like YAM (i didn't eat that!) and guava drink? haha. it was pink anyhow. haha. it was nice lah. at least they chose nicenice food(: though the room was VERY squeezy. ah.

then after that, we went to junction 8. to eat? i think, but i didn't eat alot. wasn't hungry, i should think. then went to walk a bit for grips. AND I SAW TENNIS RACKETS. i nearly went crazy in there. ah. now my father said the racket he bought was YELLOW. he really need a doctor. first was ORANGE. then RED. now YELLOW. hello?! ah, shall accept it anyhow(: i wanted a racket anyway. heex.

then we went to take NEOPRINTS. first one was rather not nice. then we took the one with the sofa(: THAT was nice. haha. i think bernice writes nice. haha. she is good to take along when taking neoprints. haha. ah. and zakkiiee didn't come. sadsad. i don't think she has ever been in a church before? ah. it's okay, girlfriend(:

ARGH.

2005-07-01T20:54:00.000-07:00

TODAY WAS YOUTH DAY.

AND THE PERFOMANCE/CELEBRATIONS ARE REALLY BORING. WHY IS IT YOUTH DAY WHEN WE STILL HAVE TO HAVE LESSONS? HUH HUH. WELL, EXCEPT FOR THE PICTURES OF THE TEACHERS, I MIGHT HAVE JUST WALKED OUT. BUT, NO, I TOLERATED IT. I DID. PEOPLE NEED TO BE PROUD OF ME.

AND IN SUCH A MOOD NOW. WHY ARE THINGS AT HOME SO CHAOTIC? THE CLOTHES ARE NOT WASHED YET AND THE ROOM IS IN A MESS. AND THE LITTLE PAINFUL BUMP ON MY NOSE IS NOT HELPING EITHER. WHY WHY?! I THINK I MIGHT KILL IF ANOTHER PERSON COMES AND SPEAK TO ME. I AM A MANIC KILLER AFTER ALL.

AND AMID ALL THIS MOOD, MY FATHER COMES AND TELL ME THAT HE HAS BOUGHT ME A RACKET ALREADY. WITHOUT ME. WITHOUT ME! I MEAN?! I AM GOING TO USE THAT RACKET! HOW CAN HE JUST BUY ONE WITHOUT ME?! THE GRIP AND SIZE EVERYTHING, IF IT DOESN'T SUIT ME, I CAN'T PLAY TO MY BEST. AND HE SAID THAT A RACKET IS FOR HITTING THE BALL, AND SINCE THE RACKET HE BOUGHT (THANK GOD IT IS PRINCE) DOES NOT DEFEAT THAT PURPOSE, HE SAID THAT IT WAS ALL RIGHT. I NEED UNDERSTANDING PEOPLE NOW. I THINK MY FATHER NEEDS HELP ON HOW TO TREAT HIS OFFSPRING.

AND I REALLY ALREADY REQUESTED FOR A SILVER ONE. AND HE BOUGHT A ORANGE ONE. I DON'T LIKE ORANGE! I GET INTO ONE OF MY MOODS WHEN HE BUYS ORANGE. RED IS OKAY, BUT WHY ORANGE?! AND I WANTED A SILVER ONE. HELLO?! PEOPLE REALLY DON'T CARE ABOUT ME. I SWEAR.

I KNOW I AM SUPPOSED TO APPRECIATED IT, THAT HE ACTUALLY WENT TO BUY IT. BUT CAN'T HE BRING ME ALONG TOO?! WHY? IS HE AFRAID THAT I MIGHT TAKE A $200 DOLLAR RACKET OFF THE HOOK AND DEMAND FOR IT? ARGH. IF I REALLY REALLY DO NOT LIKE THE RACKET HE BOUGHT, I WILL MAKE HIM BRING IT BACK TO THE SHOP HE GOT IT FROM AND CHOOSE ANOTHER ONE. AT MOST, I CAN GET ONE THAT I CHOSE MYSELF. AND I HOPE WOULD BE SILVER. OR RED. AT THE MOST. NOT ORANGE!

THERE'S A WEDDING RECEPTION TOMORROW. AND MY SISTER IS GETTING ON MY CASE ABOUT IT. LEAVE ME ALONE. OKAY. AND NOW SHE IS REALLY REALLY IRRITATING. GET OUT AND LEAVE ME ALONE. NOW! GETOFF. GETOFF!

i need my own room.

kcuts.

2005-06-30T20:16:00.000-07:00

yeeha(:

i posted at kcuts(:

coach):

2005-06-28T20:49:00.000-07:00

sighs.

i guess i was a very bad bad girl today): i was okay during school hours, but when it came to training, i started badmooding): oops. and it wasn't just any kind of badmooding. it was really bad badmooding. until i started crying. haha. for no particuliar reason.

like the english teacher said, sometimes, for no reason at all, you can start being irritatable about stuffs. i think i was like that. like, i didn't want that! i like training. LOVE it even, but, why? let's create a list.

[one]
i hit my hand on the toilet door at MacRitchie today.
[two]
i ran up slopes to reach the shack until i was breathless.
[three]
coach was wearing some orange shirt.
[four]
i had to carry a T2 first.
[five]
COACH WAS WEARING SOME ORANGE SHIRT!

haha. finefine. i know it is not coach's shirt's fault): but i had to find a reason to tell him. haha. and i was being sarcastic. yeah(: haha. but, seriously. badmooding is not good. we had race set. jiayi, me, wanmei and amanda. we all finished at the same time. and coach thought we had something wrong as we were not performing like we used to): and after he read out bernice's and heidy's timing, i couldn't take it anymore. they clocked a timing of 2.59 minutes. like, for 500, this is really really good.

WE ARE NOT GOING TO LOSE TO THEM NEXT TIME, ARE WE?!
NO WE ARE NOT. NO WAY. OVER MY DEAD BODY!

we have to improve. this is no way to waste a training. since the nationals are already coming closer): i swear, I WILL NEVER BADMOOD AGAIN! i really swear.

tennis racket(:

2005-06-27T22:22:00.000-07:00

that's the racket that my father is going to get for me! for me! tennis is such a joy(: i can't believe that i didn't think of even playing the sport in the first place. until now, when i am sort of old to nuture the skill. but, learning now is still not too late! i am so happy(: father is also sending me for a tennis course(: i think i have died and gone to heaven.

there's training tomorrow(: nationals are coming up. and for that, we are going to miss 4 glorious days of school! hahah. i am being mean. my friends are going to be so jealous. hahaa. but, it is for a good cause. and competitions are never easy): we would just have to strive and continue the glory from SDBA(:

and i think we are capable of doing that. oh yes. am so proud of my team(':

training(:

2005-06-25T20:15:00.000-07:00

had training today, even though it is a saturday(:

well. i didn't mind it that much. haha. i promised to lynette that i would come EARLY. but i came like. 21 minutes late. haha. but they haven't started yet, though. maybe coach was late. haha. anyways. had running first. it was long. haha. well, haven't it always been?!

running. coach tricked us! he said one round and i thought the route wasn't that long. he obviously thought so too, so he made us run another of the KILLER round. it is like, from the carpark to the criss-cross bridge. then to the lone tree and up the slope to the stone-thingy. haha. down that and to the straight road, touch the gate and run back to the carpark. TWICE. i ended third(: hhaa. so proud. jane and jiayi is the first and second. hmm. i GOT to beat them one day! haha. and zakkiiee too, come to mention it. that NAUGHTY GIRL. ahha. xD

then we had water training! haha. it was okay, i guess. we had a 2km warm-up and then 750m race. we clocked a timing of 4.35 minutes! so proud. haha. i guess, the water was helping today. i mean, it is fast! for a 750m anyway(: and it had felt like we were slacking. haha. must be the long strokes. yesh. anyway, it helped and this was me and wanmei's BEST timing. EVER. i feel so happy! ahha. but, we are still going to do better, next time(:

then came up to rest. after that, had 4/5 sets of 200m races. i timed them all(: it was average. like, it was the same timing all the time. wanmei said it was good, since we were already tired already and we are still maintaining the same timing! haha. for the third one, we saw SOMETHING gross in the water. something that we thought we would never see in a reservoir. it was a swimming lizard. and it wasn't ANY lizard. it was way long and was a icky colour. i got so freaked out by that thing, i was close to screaming. ahha. but anyhow, it swam away. AWAY. gosh.

then training ended 1 hour later than it was supposed to. like, what's new? haha. waited with zakkiiee for her father, but it was her mother who ended up picking her up(: long story. haha. went home. and ATE ALL THE FOOD ON THE TABLE! AHHA.

kayaking. we kayaked. everybody kayaked.

homework PINKS.

2005-06-21T14:14:00.000-07:00

homework PINKS.

well. i thought maybe i would stop using the correct term BLUES. haha. anyway, am doing homework! finishing soon(: just the english composition(: i am thankful that i had the insight to finish my maths the first. i think maths is tough): i am not gifted to learn maths. sighs.

besides the composition, i still have english vocabulary to do. i don't think that is too difficult? never know unless i try(: and i am so not trying and instead, typing away at this blog. okay. shall have more mental power and strong will. that would make me survive, says the canoeing teach in charge. ah.

tennis is fun! my father knows all about my enthu-ness about that sport and thus, have decided to send me for a tennis course(: that, would require buying balls and a racket(: double grins. haha. soon, i can play on my own and don't need to rely on jiayi(: yayye! and also don't need to travel so far to her house just to play tennis and sometimes ending up in the wrong block and maluating myself): so paiseh. ahha.

but we don't have to buy too many balls, though(: cause when you go to a tennis court, there, you can get all the balls you want, stuck to the fence or lying in the drain waiting for a wash, before you can use it(: they, of course, are not that easy to obtain! it is either stuck REAL high up or already weathered to nothingness. eww. haha. not very reliable. but(:

shall study.

fat stickman?!

2005-06-20T00:01:00.000-07:00

ah well.

i changed my blogskin again! and this is the nicest blogskin i ever did on my own(: haha. i am such a genius. ahha. but really. went to jiayi's house to play tennis today, again! it was hot. ahah. and i got a ball(:

a greenish-yellow ball(: a tennis ball! i never known having a tennis ball like that could be so much joy. ahha. it has a nice bounce and is nice to touch! ah. bliss. ahah. okay. we played. and the longest rally? 3 times. ahha. we really need to buck up. and i am thinking of going for course? yeah(:

tomorrow got training. and now, my family is seeking computer help. from ME. i need to hide. and feel superior at the same time(: ahha.

skating. disaster

2005-06-15T21:22:00.000-07:00

skating!
WARNING: SPORT NOT SUITABLE FOR PEOPLE WHO HAVE SOFT, SCRAPABLE SKIN AND TROUBLE WITH BALANCING ON TWO THIN BLADES.

haha. skating. we skated. everybody skated. ahha. yeah. i fell down): like more than 5 times): it was painful and the ice was wet and hard. ahah. naturally, it was painful. ahha. we reached there around 10 in the morning. and got out of there at 2 in the afternoon. that long. and what me and jiayi achieved in the 1234567908743 hours there was falling and getting up again. i swear. skating is really so difficult! i scraped myself on the ice too): it turn red and the skin below the skin i scraped was disgusting): we cannot go one round without falling at least once. haha.

but, i got the hang of it. but i was scared as there were alot of other FAST skaters there and so went slow with jiayi. haha. was giving her support too(: well, okay. she did too. ahha. so, if she fell, i fall too. haha. and that is like often. but, still it was another different experience(: so i think it was fun and qianying brought her sister! she was cute and knows how to skate better than me and jiayi. haha.

we got scrapes, cuts and blisters from the skating experience though. and it was tiring(: the blisters are so going to hurt tomorrow): the skates are really so heavy and inside was fitted with alot of idunnowhats that can cut and bruise you): i got a few. everybody got a few. ahha.

after 12, falling on our butts are out of the question. jiayi and i started falling on our knees instead. cause the first half was learning how to lean forward and not so back, so fell on our butts. then the second half was knowing that we had to lean forward and leaned too forward, so fell on our knees instead. it is painful, falling on our knees. the whole weight on it): jiayi got a bruise on her left knee. ahha. my skin turned red. but was nothing much. tried not to fall so much after that!

bernice and i also agreed that when we grow up and have babies, we are going to make them learn how to skate, do ballet, gymnastics, the works. haha. and we said that we would give birth at the same time, on the same day and enroll them on the same day and make them learn at the same time. haha. then we got carried away.. 'nuff said(x

LET'S SHARE THE PAIN!

training. as usual.

2005-06-14T19:00:00.000-07:00

had training. as usual. but today's training is a tad different!

it's in the MORNING!

there are a lot of things that are different in the morning and in the afternoon. like, in the afternoons, the lanes are not that rough. in the morning, the sun rising is much more glaring than the afternoon sun. going to the one-thousand mark has wind, however, coming back was another thing, in the morning):

i just hate it when the lanes are so rough. pfft. like, other canoeists HAVE to have their races in the recovery course and then, HAVE to have their recovery/technical in the racing course. LIKE?!

and the lanes were not very smooth. the buoys are like jumbled together and some lanes have missing ones, making it SO difficult to look straight. i went in a zig-zag manner): it was UBER IRRITATING. felt like screaming and killing everyone with my POWER EYES there and then. but, canoeing is about endurance? so endure we shall. haha.

anyways(: zakkie got onto the same bus as i today. i was hoping against hope that MAYBE she would be there(: but, my lips hurt too much to speak that much): hmph. and as usual we had running. up the really really vertical slope again. you'd REALLY think coach was trying to KILL us. i was like the last THREE. and i ended 10th. i wonder, if that is good. but most of the people i overtook were sec1s and they are not really STAMINA CONTAINERS): sadly. our team could use more of those species. haha.

then water training. had a T1 first. then wanmei finally turned up. she had forgotten that training was in the morning and so came late. ahha. it's okay. we still got to paddle(: and we beat bernice and heidy in the race(: HOHO. ahha. but that was the only race that we two got to take part in): but, fine. i rather go home and bathe earlier.

stopped at Far East with lynette to eat Churros. i think. yeah. they were superr good(: i swear. i wonder how many people even patronize that stall, since the guy behind the counter was really happy to serve us. haha. he even said BYE and COME BACK AGAIN. well, we'll see(: then went to drink bubble tea and finally went home(:

ICE SKATING!

2005-06-09T22:56:00.000-07:00

finally.

i found Prince Of Tennis 4th Ending, Kaze No Tabibito. like, after HOW MANY HOURS OF SEARCHING?! thanks, that website(: haha. and i also found Future. the FULL version(: wheeee!

there was training today(: and yes, i think i liked it(: we had running first. up and down this really really almost vertical-to-the-ground slope. you'd think coach was trying to kill us. i almost tumbled down the slope. haha. could have gotten hurt real badly. but it was fine(: i didn't fall. luckily. haha. coach said that we are to start individually and at 10 seconds interval. i was at least behind 7 people? those of whom included jiayi, THE SUPER FAST RUNNER, and jane, THE STAMINA CONTAINER. naturally, i was a bit down): but, i still ended 3rd(: i love myself!

wanmei didn't come for training, though, so coach put me in a T1. it was not that bad, actually! we had four times of 500m racing. surprisingly, i didn't find it tiring after the race and still could give all i could in the other two(: i almost tied with jane for the first one. 3.32 minutes. the second one, i beat jane! timing of 3.33 minutes(: then the third one was because NJC was sorta creating obstacles for me): but somehow, i managed to get the same timing as zakkie and jane(: 3.34minutes. somehow, we all tied, together. haha.

the racing did not make me feel so SLOWPOKE anymore(: thanks to the bonk-head guy. haha. saying i got no FIGHTING SPIRIT?! i'll show him, i would(: and i did! haha. i feel so proud(: and i found out that janeex did not have a strong will. that, maybe is what is dragging her down? ya. although jane do not have, zakkie knows that, however, i do(: i felt happy when zakkie told me that(: i do have a strong will. i realise and know now. all the qualities that i did not know i possessed. i feel so proud of myself(; and will start honing them!

there's training tomorrow(: and i am sure there is running too(: i am starting to like them all(: crescent canoeing team ROCKS(: and there is no doubt about that!

ICE-SKATING IN 6 DAYS!

BURNING!

2005-06-08T19:23:00.000-07:00

training tomorrow(:

i do have a passion for sports(: is ice-skating a sport? well. haha. training yesterday. didn't post, cause i didn't feel like it): was too tired, i guess. anyways. i switched back to a T2 again. with wanmei. coach said that i was better in a T2. INDIRECTLY. haha. he made me and amanda switch. when he switched us, he said, " now i got a faster T1 and T2." i wonder what that means. haha.

the waters seem to be heavy yesterday. and i know why coach keeps saying that it is a good thing when someone has long arms(: they have an advantage! and i am one of those lucky people(: so, now that i know about this, i am so going to use it to the maximum! we are not going to get the same Nationals results as last year, no way! crescent canoeing team WILL fight!

as i have posted in STUCK, i said that i was not much of a fukabucho. means vice-captain. and when i went home with lynette yesterday, i have been thinking about what she said. and i think i understand. a vice-captain is elected for a reason! and i think i know exactly what to do(; thanks, lynette(:

somehow. i feel happier. and maybe a bit of hopeful(:

tennis no ojisama. NOT.

2005-06-06T18:42:00.000-07:00

went to jiayi's house to play tennis today(: it was fun. i think. haha. we played with the hard yellow balls. we tried serving first. the longest rally we had was only 3. haha. go figure. but! we just started learning! next time, we are going to master serving and start on something else. other than running around picking up those run-away balls. ahha.

my serving sucks. haha. throw the ball into the air. then i sometimes miss it when trying to hit. so it just falls back on the ground where it started out from. haha. and jiayi starts laughing on the other side of the court. haha. i can't blame her. i know it is a funny sight. but, i thought jiayi knows how to play, since her father had bought all those tennis rackets and bright yellow balls like, maybe some time ago. seems like only some of her family members know how. but, it's okay(: we learn together, before we die laughing at what each other do on the court. jiayi's serving is okay, she doesn't miss. but when she hits it, the ball sort of fly out sideways and then hit the doubles court. haha. OUT!

i'm sure we could have held out longer than 2 hours. but the sun was really HOT and i was thinking of the ice-cream that was in jiayi's fridge upstairs(: haha. we meant to make it three hours, but, well. the temptation(: haha.

we also tried hitting it to the wall surrounding the courts. there were three in total and all were empty(: so we just helped ourselves. ahha. yup, so we tried hitting it to the wall. it was okay. just training up our serving and grip on the racket. it was a small-sized one. and RED! like the one ryoma uses(: haha. it is lighter than the bigger ones we tried first. oh. and we also have to really build up control of the racket. ahha. or else, we might just think that. HIT THE BALL! WHATEVER! JUST HIT THE BALL! haha. then it flies somewhere else(x

but it was FUN, nevertheless(: deciding on going back next monday(: hope the weather is going to be in our favour! that is, no sun, just nice fluffy clouds and lots of soft breezes. then maybe we can hold out for over three hours. it's not too late to learn new skills, right? xD

TENNISTENNISTENNIS

friends.

2005-06-03T21:01:00.000-07:00

if one day, you feel like crying,
call me.
i don't promise that i can make you laugh,
but i can cry with you.

if one day, you want to run away,
call me.
i don't promise to ask you to stop,
but i can run with you.

if one day, you don't want to listen to anyone,
call me.
i promise to be there for you,
and i promise to be very quiet.

but if one day you call,
and there is no answer,
come fast to see me,
perhaps i need you.

<3333 fuji syusuke! taiwan.

2005-06-02T21:32:00.000-07:00

i went to taiwan! and there, i met this really really CUTE boy. he is 5 years old and scared of me. haha. but, anyhow. he still allowed me to carry him and he also warmed up to me in the end. well. maybe because i am so OLD): haha.

most of the time spent there were in a BUS. don't ask me. but seems like taiwan is so huge. there is once where we sat in the bus for 5 hours straight. and the sightseeing only lasted for 1 hour maximum. imagine my boredom. but, the mountains were nice. all cloudy and mystical(:

we went to alot of places. all chinese names. haha. too many small places with all those really complicated names. and i think i like singapore better. much much more easier to travel and neat and compacted(: and no typhoons and earthquakes like taiwan. the tour guide said that earthquakes occur quie often and while we were there, two occured. one was not so bad, but the other one was near to the danger zone for the intensity of earthquakes. haha. too bad i was sleeping. haha. couldn't feel it. but the tour guide did. it happened in the middle of the night.

and and! taiwan has SO many bugs. eew. i took pictures of them all. haha. spiders, furry caterpillers, water flying bugs, bees, cockroaches and woodlouse something. haha. so many and all of them so DISGUSTING. i hate bugs. their exoskeleton is so crushy. if you accidentally step on it, you hear this really icky sound. like fingernails on a chalkboard.

we also stayed in 4 different hotels. everyday, we had to change. like nomads. different beds, toilets, WATER, the works. once we stayed in this hotel that had this really smelly water. like it came straight from the sewage. brushing teeth, you rinse your mouth, you can feel the diference and it is ALOT. pffft.

tomorrow got training(: good. cause i have grown fatter again. taiwan's food is really rich. haha. needa train away all the excess(: and i miss everything there(: *winks.